Welcome to this book of bitching, rant and pretty insulting things, this is a book of self-understanding, even from the horrible things I said to people, which can make me regret up until today.
This is the story of my life, things that happen.
It...
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My hand trembles when I write that is so annoying DX
Almost 2:00 am and I'm still awake. I'm thinking and regretting that those thoughts come to mind.
I thought it was only paranoia or something like that but every night since vacations started, I've been having nightmares with Asuna, she either kills me, hits me or we are friends again.
I'm having a feeling that this is becoming a big trauma, and it's making me nervous.
Because in every dream of those, there's Plus, laughing evilly some meters behind Asuna.
No one believes me and it doesn't seem like they intend in doing it, they don't care, Plus lied, Plus blamed it on me. And I know I said this a million times.
Those who are actually responsible of all of this fight aren't even taking the slightest chance to take responsibility.
And just because I am protecting them I took all the blame as if I did it.
This is a complete example. The problem between Asuna and Chii had nothing to do with me. But I still was involved because I wanted to change things. But the bitter feelings between them remained.
I'm sure who the real enemies are and who the fake friends are. They aren't necessarily mine. But let me tell you, it's a matter of time for them to notice the truth, or fall in the lies of other people.
I don't understand why Asuna said we were "toxic" for her though. Let us be honest.
Her house problems and psychological problems have nothing to do with us. She's the one that decided to harm herself. But no one remembers the friends that tells you not to do it and ends up blaming them...
Not fair.
I hope that by writing this I can finally sleep at ease.
It's the fact that I still care what bothers me, curiously from my perspective the fake friend was her... She decided to trust a new friend rather than the old ones.. That's quite confusing...
But no, I'm in no position to say bad things about her behind her back.
I know she does say things about us, because Plus has told us what she says.
Yet, let's let her believe what she wants to believe.
If she's happy, I have nothing else to do but be happy for her.
Well, morning night (?), I'll talk to a guy friend for a while and then go to sleep.
Night. Sleep well guys thanks for reading
Update September 2016: I actually meant this chapter... Just my emotions exploding.
