Diary of a Messed Up Teenager

Sadly, it begins again

I spent 1 week without problems. Two weeks of vacations.

Since my parents divorced, I have the obligation to stay one of them with my dad and one of them with my mom.

Why that way dammit.

Let's start with today:

I had just arrived to the car, and literally 5 minutes later I started fighting (not arguing) with my mom because of some dishes I took to my dad's house. I forgot one and she started shouting at me.

"How can you not look at all the things I do for you! I send you food but you don't give a fuck about looking out what I send to you."

Well sorry, but you didn't even took your time to listen to the why.

Yeah! I think it's because it's more important to worry about the dishes than I help dad at home. Okay good!

We were still on the car, but after chilling down a bit she asked me why I didn't like to spend time with family.

I simply replied:
"I don't like to coexist with family, I'm better off alone"

Dammit she fucking got angry like if I'd said "I hate you" or "I don't want to see you again"

She needs to learn to differ on the intentions of people, because she takes things like that way TOO personal.

Now the bitch started imitating me.

My sister was a witness that I wasn't saying that like a jerkass old lady.

But you know her with her shitty selfishness.

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Leaving that aside. I'm annoyed when Kanato and Chii start hating their lives out of nowhere.

It would be selfish to say "I don't have anyone" when you have a fucking gang of people to help you out.

One day when they wake up with nothing, they'll know what it really is to be alone. I know people who've gone through that.

Well, I don't say that I'm alone because for as much lonely as I feel, there's always someone.

However, even if I lost someone, that doesn't mean I miss being Asuna's friend.

For as much as we fought I miss her, even if I don't want to. I miss our friendship.

Still, I can't believe she still hasn't noticed what Plus has done.

Actually, yesterday I had this dream that reminded me that Plus had been the one who told us about the threatening story Asuna wrote.

She said:
"Asuna is super angry, she wrote a horrible story about you on Wattpad."

For as much as I'm trying to erase this idea of the mind (because I want Asuna to be happy), I know that everything is Plus's fault.

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BUT NOTHING CAN BE DONE BECAUSE ASUNA DOESN'T BELIEVE ME ANYMORE CONGRATULATIONS BEGOÑA ^___^

Shit everything.

I sent her a message, but she ignored it.

I want to be back as friends like seriously.

A part of me wishes that she reads the chapters I've wrote lately, but other wishes for her not to read them.

I have no clue if she does but I don't know what to think if she didn't either way.

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Something I didn't mention of yesterday, I broke a promise.

I cut myself again.

So many bad memories, so many mistakes, so many people I have hurt.

Okay let's leave that elsewhere.

Thanks for reading guys, seriously this helped me to unburden.

The time zone is changing tonight, I hate summer time zone, it's so early for everything.

It's still a bit early (9:18 pm that's early for me) in here yet, good night.

Update September 2016: I don't know how to comment on this story.

Wordless.

This was posted on April 2, 2016.