OBSESSED | beynika

Flamenco (32)

Sasha POV
The next day

I been spending all day trying to get Onika back but it ain't going to well. I made her breakfast, got her flowers, showered her with gifts, I apologized a million times and I don't even know what I'm sorry for. I just want us to be happy again.

"Onika please talk to me"

"There's nothing to talk about"

"Yes there is our relationship??"

"What about it"

"Onika we haven't slept in the same room for a month now, everytime we talk it turns into an argument and you're never home"

"And who fault is that"

"I've said I'm sorry a million times what do you want me to do" that was a genuine question.

"I want you to leave me alone Beyonce"

"Onika I love you and I love our family I just want us to move past this and-"

"And what pretend like everything is ok"

"Well talk to me what can I fix or change"

"Bey you are the problem so unless you can fix yourself move. She tried to get out the door but I'm blocking it.

"I'm in therapy i have been for a while and I'm in anger management I haven't been going off haven't you noticed"

"Bey move"

"Please Onika I'll do whatever just don't leave" this is getting pathetic.

"I'll just leave through the back" she sighed and walked away.

"Onika"

"What" she turned around with an attitude.

"I love you"

"..ok. Bye" she walked out.

I felt my heart shatter into a million pieces. I stood there with tears seeping out watching her drive off. This is why I don't f*cking be vulnerable it gets you nowhere!

Later that night

Kelly had a party that I'm required to attend I brought my kids and T with me and I guess nika had her own ride. The kids went to play while T got her a drink and chilled with mimi and I just sat at the table with a heavy heart. I guess my friends noticed cus they came over.

"D*mn b*tch you need a shot"

"Toya please I'm not in the mood"

"Yea obviously you all raining over my party"

"Sorry Kelly it's just been a lot going on lately"

"Yea we can catch up in a bit but for now let's have fun" she pulled me up and we went to the dance floor.

We danced to our favorite song and it kinda cheered me up a little. That is until I saw Onika with some girl I've see before, I believe she was one of Kelly's roommate back in college. I went up to them.

"Um hey.." I don't even know how to talk to my own wife anymore.

"Hey uh this"

"Heyy I remember you you're Kelly's best friend right?"

"Yea what was your name again?"

"Kehlani"

"Ohh yea, so you two know each other?" I don't know tf how Onika just moved down here not too long ago.

"Oh we just you know getting to know each other and sh*t"

"No I don't know please enlighten me"

"Bey can you just leave"

"Don't want to be around me at home or in public? Wow what's next"

"Ugh" she took kehlani and left literally seconds later I heard gunshots. The first thing my mind went to was Onika.

I called her name and searched through her in the crowd. I didn't have to look for the kids cus I knew they were safe in a room in the house with Kelly's mom.

"BEY" I was hoping it was Onika but it was Kelly instead she was trying to pull me in the opposite way but I had to find Onika.

When I got towards the front to my surprise it wasn't Onika nor iman but kalani.

"Aw sh*t" I said under my breath. Instantly I locked eyes with kalani.

"Oh look who it is the b*tch who responsible for her own sons death"

"Kalani you know that's not true"

"YES IT IS YOURE A MURDER" says the one with the gun in her hand.

"Kalani let's talk this has nothing to do with everyone else"

"NO F*CK YOU, YOU JUST HAD TO TAKE SOMEONE ELSE OUT OF MY LIFE ITS LIKE YOU WANT ME COMPLETELY ALONE"

"NO I DONT"

"YES YOU DO WHY DO YOU KEEP PUNISHING ME" I saw tears start to fall from the face that looked similar to mines.

"Kalani I know and I'm sorry"

"YOURE ALWAYS SORRY YOUVE BEEN SORRY MY WHOLE LIFE WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO BE A F*CKING MOTHER AND DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTS SEEING YOU MOTHER YOUR OTHER KIDS"

"Kalani"

"You don't have nothing to say to that"

I sighed.

"UN F*CKING BELIEVABLE"

"Kalani please let's talk about this"

"NO F*CK THAT YOU ARE THE WORST PARENT EVERRR AND I F*CKING HATE YO-" before she could finished she was hit by a car. Hospital said she died on the scene.

Life works in a funny away, her first word was 'mama' and her last were 'I f*cking hate you'. I wish I had the courage to love her and her brother how they deserved to be love. Although I didn't show it I did truly have love for them.

Dear Kalani,
I remember your first words, first tooth, and first steps.
I felt closer to you more than my other kids because we kinda raised each other.
I remember our garden.
Me and you would sneak out when it was late and we couldn't sleep, we would sit by the fountain and listen to the water.
When you started to get sleepy I would hold you in my arms and sing to you.
I named you kalani because it meant the heavens and I believed you were sent to me from the heavens.
Although you may think I hate you.
I love you more than you can imagine.
I just wished I would've shown you.
I hope that you know that once I loved you.
Can't take what you love so hold me closer.
Realize you don't know what you got until it's gone.