Trapped forever: The never-ending captivity of a lost girl.

chapter 13

i roll my eyes i finish washing the dishes i quickly dry them and i place them in the cupboard i make my way out to walk through the woods again since there's not a lot to do here as i was about to start my walk pan appears "where ya going princess" he smiles "okay i change my mind go back to the soft u" i say "haha too late sugar" he says "the pet names are so cringe" i point my finger to my mouth and i stick out my tounge "u say that but i bet u secretly like it" what.the.fuck. he winks "i really dont" i gave him a moody look i turn around scrunching my nose "heyy wait" pan walks up to me "what?" "what did i say?" he says asking as he has no clue. "i bet you secretly like it," i repeat what he says "i mean really?" i turn around "what, your telling me u never liked it, then why did u kiss me i mean we almost-" i cut him off as that embarassing moment came to my mind "i dont know okay i dont know why i did that i shouldnt of done that in the first place okay i just dont know." i sigh "you dont know? divinie i seen the way u look at me ur eyes they sparkle whenever i enter the room you do know divine" he says completely telling the truth. "i cant okay i need to go i cant be here anymore pan" his face softens. "what? what do u mean by that" he says softly "i cant. be. here anymore im sorry i just cant take me home now." i say my tone getting more serious "i cant do that divine okay? what about everything we been through" he says getting more.. sadder? "pan ive experienced alot here ur a big part of that just take me home" i say getting more cross. "i ca-" "YES YOU CAN. YOU DONT KNOW WHAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH HERE. TAKE ME HOME GODAMMIT." i shout "calm down. divine i know exactly what you have been through i know every bit of what you have been through and really you wanna go back home to that shit dad of yours? i mean really divine your better of here" tears form, what dose he know about my home life "ur really gonna talk about my home life knowing nothing about it?" i say not preparing for what he was about to say "i was friends with your mum before i came to neverland she supported me more then anyone else i was just a orphan. she was everything but then we drifted apart i was alone very alone i got really deppresed i mean very deppresed then one night i was walking alone till i felt a pressure on my arm i was being dragged into the air by this dark grey shadow then i appeared here. skip a few years i decided to watch over your mum to see how she was doing but as i got to ur home i see her being put into a ambulance and i see little you crying you was 5 i started to then watch you grow i watched your every struggle every happy moments every sad moments i have watched you since u was 5, then a few days after ur 17th birthday i finally thought to myself that your life would be better here so i sent my shadow to come get you then i acted like i didnt know you of course and all the times i was angry at you and the and all the things ive said to you i didnt mean it. i get angry all the time im schiphorenic i try to hide it by being emotionless i thought it would be easier that way. but yea divine i know every flaw about u." he lets out a breath i look down my heart rate increases my hands, tremble my knees fall to the floor "you.. knew... my mum?" i slowly speak my voice cracking tears form in my eyes that i cant hold in my nose sniffles my vision becomes cloudly due to how much tears im producing pan bends down "divine look at me" he reaches for my chin but i pull his arm away "dont talk to me. pan. ever again" i stand up and i walk away i fidgit with my hands trying to stop them from shaking i inhale and exhale trying to calm myself down this was alot to process "divine!" he catches up to me "i mean it pan leave me alone"i push him away "fine divine." he sounds cold, he fades away into thin air. i watch him fade away tears still forming i wipe my burning hot face i walk to my tent.