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i have so many feelings
stuck at the back of my head
i have so many thoughts
stuck where i can't reach them
i can never resolve them
hell, half the time
i don't even know they're there
i want to see them
i want to hear them in my head
i want to listen to them
but they're buried deep somewhere
my thoughts can't see
buried so deep
that for the longest time
i didn't even know they ever existed
i guess i've just been pushing things
far too deep into me
things that i probably need to see
for a while
i thought i felt these things for no reason
like maybe i just had a long day
or i wasn't used to some change in the season
it turns out
those emotions most likely did have a purpose
but i suppressed them for to long
that i didn't even notice
all the things those emotions were affecting in me
or just how deep they were controlling me
oh, how much i always underestimated
the suppressed emotions brewing inside me
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'identity'- poetry
Poetry"perhaps it's impossible to wear an identity without becoming what you pretend to be" a poem book exploring struggles with identity, emotions, and finding a place where you belong (a few of these poems are from my other poem book "inside me".)