Ali left as he arrived in Hira and Orhun's life: suddenly. Leaving them sad and heartbroken. But they knew Ali would be safe and happy with his father. Saying goodbye to him was difficult for Hira and Orhun.
Later that night, when everyone had gone to sleep, Orhun went to be with Hira. He looked forward to spending time with her each evening.
"Are you crying?" Orhun asked when he saw her.
Hira wiped her eyes. "Just a little", Hira told him.
"Ali came into our lives when we were least expecting it, and he left in the same way", Orhun told her.
"I wish...", Hira broke off.
"What?", Orhun asked.
"I thought he was yours. You said on the phone, he was your child. I thought you meant biologically. Now I wish he had been", Hira reminisced.
"He was our child, wasn't he? It didn't matter to me if he was mine. It was enough that he was Nihan's", Orhun replied.
Hira sighed.
"Hang on a minute", Orhun suddenly said, placing his hands on her shoulders.
"If he had been mine, it wouldn't bother you?", he asked.
"Not then", Hira responded after a minute.
Orhun inclined his head, indicating that he wanted her to explain.
"We got married under a specific circumstance. Even if you had a string of affairs, I wouldn't have said anything." Hira told him.
His callousness still hurt.
"I wouldn't do that, no matter what", Orhun told her. "I'm yours and you are mine. We will have each other". Orhun held her tight.
The next thing he knew was Hira initiating a deep kiss. They'd kissed uncountable times now, and no matter how welcoming she'd been, it had been Orhun to initiate kissing and lovemaking. Orhun was taken by surprise but recovered quickly. And soon, they were both naked, dancing to the age-old rhythm.
Orhun sighed as he entered her tight channel, thrusting inside her deeply, earning a soul-shattering moan from Hira. It was music to his ears. It was another thing he loved about sex with Hira - the sexy sounds that came just for him.
"Say my name, Hira", Orhun commanded.
Hira tried to comply, but couldn't. The pleasure coursing through her body was taking control.
"O-", she tried. But waves of pleasure prevented her from completing it.
Orhun thrust deeply, his balls pressed tight against Hira's entrance and the blunt head of his cock nudged her cervix. He stilled inside her.
"Say my name and tell me what you want me to do, or I'll stop right here" he threatened.
Hira breathed rapidly as the sudden halt in activity allowed her a respite. Holding on to Orhun, with her legs and arms, Hira took a moment to find her voice.
"Orhun... Orhun... Orhun", Hira repeated over and over again.
"That's right, my darling. Remember who your lover is," he said. "Now, for the next part. What do you want me to do?"
Hira felt his shaft deep inside her, pulsating with life, the promise of pleasure and a treasure far beyond these few stolen moments. She held him tighter, her hand going to the back of his head, pulling him closer. She felt him place tiny kisses on her temple.
"Orhun, fill my womb. It feels so empty, fill it with your seed. Give me a baby tonight", Hira spoke her deepest desire, something she couldn't have earlier.
Orhun groaned. Her request was too much for his rapidly dwindling control. As if responding to his lover's desire, his body betrayed him and he orgasmed inside her ferociously. He chanted her name as he came and came and came.
Descending from the pleasure, Orhun tried to catch his breath. "What did you just do to me?" he asked. "I couldn't give you pleasure".
"I told you what I wanted. And I think you gave it to me", Hira responded content in the feeling of Orhun's powerful orgasm inside her. It didn't matter right then that she hadn't orgasmed.
"That was the most intense feeling of my life", Orhun told her, still lying on top of her, his soft penis still inside her.
"Mine too", Hira answered.
Orhun lifted a little off her to look into her eyes. Hira suddenly grabbed him, fearing that he was moving away.
"Don't go", Hira implored.
"I didn't want to. Just wanted to look at you", Orhun said. "
"Do you really want a child? Or is this because you're sad about Ali?", Orhun asked.
"I think, now you better get off, we can't have this conversation with you inside me", Hira told him.
Orhun pulled out and moved to lay beside her. Hira felt as if a vital part of her had suddenly gone missing.
"So? Do you really want a baby", he repeated the question.
Hira shook her head briefly. "I want YOUR baby", Hira told him.
"Hira, you don't know what you are doing to me", Orhun said as he kissed her deeply. "But there's more... tell me".
Hira swallowed.
"My life... has not been easy." Hira began.
Orhun suddenly sat up and leaned against the headboard, then pulled Hira up against him, holding her tightly. This was going to be a difficult conversation.
"Yes and some of it was because of me", Orhun stated matter of factly.
There was a beat of silence.
"Go on", Orhun told her as he kissed her hair, willing some of the hurt away.
"It hurt sometimes, and I don't even know where the wound is. I feel... I feel as if everything I have - you, will be taken away one day mercilessly. And I won't survive that.
Orhun tightened his arms around her, trying to infuse strength into her. "You will always have me", Orhun promised.
"No, I won't. We've already seen that", Hira told him.
Although her words were without malice, Orhun felt his heart ache for her. He remained silent. Her words were true after all.
"I don't want to dig up the past, but it keeps coming up, and I suppose I will always remember and fear it even if I forgave you completely.", Hira told him sadly. "But a baby, your baby, will help me heal. I will always have someone to hold on to. Someone who would be completely mine, without ifs and buts, without conditions - our baby".
"Hira... Hira...", Orhun whispered her name as he kissed her hair and face. "I'm completely yours, too".
They made love throughout the night.
