Living In The Shadows by Alayna Marie Ayres

Chapter 4 looking through the glass door

Well this part of the story is difficult one friends please bear with me on this matter. I shall be talking about difficult topics in this chapter so bare that in mind thank you

Chapter 4 The Day From Hell
During This Time I couldn't take it anymore the bullying the pain I just was so depressed and everything again they just wouldn't stop hurting me or throwing food at me at lunch or making me feel worthless high school was living hell for me for so many years I just thought it would stop after jr high but no for 15 years I was bullied no one would believe me in high school that this was happening I just wanted the suffering to stop during this time why wouldn't it right? But I thought at least my so called friends would help me through this but they didn't they made it worse for me the mean girls as I call them made it worse they would hurt me their evil words of how I looked and everything I Just couldn't take it anymore I was in pain more than ever so why in the hell didn't my teachers believe why wouldn't they make it stop? I asked them they thought I was making it up in my mind yea right ok I mean I just remember so much that happened during my high school years at least one teacher believed in me my health teacher he knew what was going on he saw it he tried to help me but honesty I didn't want to deal with any more pain so much had happened at this point I didn't want to face anyone ever again I couldn't handle it anymore again at last one person believed me and saw me and believed me of the pain I was feeling during this awful time in my life he saved me life I was such deep dark place during this time honesty I didn't want to live during this time of my life so thought till I just felt like someone saw me and wanted to help me through this time of my life this person saw me and then they helped me through that difficult time of my life with out their help I wouldn't be here no one believed me but him he saw the sadness In me and my eyes sadly my teachers didn't see it they blamed me sometimes like I was making this up seriously I thought I was so beyond disappointed in them and annoyed be dude they were educators why didn't they make this stop ? They knew what was happening and they didn't do anything for all of the years I was there I felt so alone and numb at this point in high school they didn't do anything about this they said oh just ignore it will go away I'm like how will go away like the wind ? So I thought or nothing else mattered to them they were so selfish and disgusting I didn't understand why would blame me for this situation what did I do so I thought ? They are supposed to protect me from this kind of behavior but they didn't at all they did absolutely nothing to protect me from these disgusting people who we're evil why would they blame me for this behavior I didn't do anything wrong who would blame the victim who's being treated and harassed like this ? I mean really people ask yourself that question why would they blame someone who's being abused like this when they had the opportunity to make this situation better or worse anyone else agree with me? I wish they would have done better than they did so I thought. Why me I asked myself why? What did I do deserve this kind of treatment and abuse ? From these bullies it was hard enough facing these people everyday and hearing what they said about me and how they treated me so badly why me ? I why hurt me so badly that didn't feel good about myself at all or anything else for that matter why didn't anyone help me? Or even stand up for me when I needed help the most. From anyone or anything.