Living In The Shadows by Alayna Marie Ayres

Chapter 35 becon of light

I thought I would see the light would help me get out of this darkness of my life I just wanted to feel better about myself I wanted to feel loved I wanted to be happy again I wanted to be able to feel wanted in the world was that so hard to ask for ? I didn't know what to do with myself anymore did I want to close myself away from the world I wanted to feel something anything was any one trying to find me and love me for me I wanted to feel like I mattered in the world I wanted to be beacon of light in the world I didn't know if I could be anything could I rise from the ashes like the phoenix? Till now I did rise From the ashes and became stronger than I ever could be I still feel sad sometimes about the past things that I have done in my life again you can't change the past you must leave it closed and locked sometimes you need to look deep inside of your soul and fight it's easier said than done sometimes I still think of the past it still hurts of what others did to me and how they hurt me I had to move on as much as possible I had to become stronger and I will become stronger and better than my past and I know it's hard times but you have to do it it's still difficult for me to believe in myself honestly it's difficult road but I try very best to not let the past over take me and take me back through those times that I don't ever want to remember at all I want to leave that part of my life closed and locked I didn't want to look back in the past of how I was or wanted to be back in that place and closed and done I wanted to escape my past and I did I left it in that door and closed it forever and done...