Living In The Shadows by Alayna Marie Ayres

Chapter 39 Dont give up

As Jimmy V once said don't give up don't ever give up those words have been a great deal to me I think I wanted to give up during this process and journey it was such a dark times In the past and the emotions I had going through all of that pain was just like an ocean wave going back and forth I felt so alone and depressed I didn't know what to do with myself anymore I thought I shouldn't live anymore or anything I don't know some force said don't give up don't ever give up and I never did the pain of the bullying effected me in so many ways it made me feel small and not wanted I hated myself for so long I hated how I looked and felt no one would ever want me so I thought people made me feel so ugly and sick I didn't know how I have survived any thing sometimes we have to be unchained from the past and then never look back and just try to move on was the hardest part for me do to do my past over took my soul I thought I wouldn't be able to escape the chain of my past that such a hold on me and I never want to think about my past ever again but sometimes I do it still in the back of my mind of the things I did and the things I was shamed of doing in my past again it was the door I never wanted to open ever again it would remain closed forever but sometimes it opens and leads me into a dark hole of pain and into sadness and I don't ever want me that place ever again for even a second so what I am saying this is don't ever give up on your dreams or your goals that you have for yourself if any one tells you can't prove them wrong because you can sometimes we need a wake up call to move on from the past and never think about it again but if ever think about your past just chained up and lock the door on it. I know it's harder to do so but just do it healing yourself it's so difficult even for me it is sometimes difficult to move on again don't you ever give up.
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