Light Me Up Again

chapter 9

Elliot

I stand in the backyard of Luci's house looking up at her room, I see her standing close to the glass doors and witness Arlo's hands lifting her shirt of her soft skin and over her head. The way her hair falls down onto her back as the shirt is lifted of her head, mesmorises me, and I can't stop thinking that it should be me in there touching her.

My thoughts are interrupted by Colin, "Elliot honestly I'd go back home to her, she knows your history here and I bet she is worried, also she probably is alone and hoped that you would have gone home with her". I look back at colin nodding, knowing full well that he was right. I looked up at Luci's room again in hopes that she would notice me, but I couldn't see her.

"You need to talk to her, don't you? You have some unfinished business with her, that's why you stayed. " I look down to him "your right, colin, I need to talk to her, but what am I going to say? I love her with all my being, I want her, but she is happy, and I don't want to destroy that." Colin stood and gave me one big push towards the door. "Don't be a baby, be a man and ask to talk to her."

I walk towards the stairs and stop to turn and look at the wall where the photo of us children use to hang. I have to replace the frame; I will do that soon. I walk slowly up the stairs towards her bedroom when I can hear her moaning from Arlo, pleasuring her "Faster" I hear as she instructs him to continue what he is doing. I grip the hand rail of the stairs and squeeze anger overcoming my body and run back down and back into my home.

I go into the gym and tape my hands, preparing them for my boxing gloves. I turn on some system of a down and punch into my punching bag, letting out my anger. I am such a jerk. What was I thinking? I had the most amazing girl, and I lost her over my stupidity. My body is getting hot, and im sweating, I throw my shirt to the ground and continue to punch the bag.

At this point, it's been a good 1 hour, and steam covers the windows from the heat in the room. I feel a sudden breeze hit my back, I turn and see Luci standing in the doorway. She walks in slowly, keeping her eyes on me, and closes the door. "What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be with your boyfriend?" I say while I continue to punch the bag. She is quiet and moves to the chair near the window.

"Colin told me you wanted to talk, I was surprised to hear that you're still here. I thought you would have gone home with anna to your bachelor pad. " She smirks and laughs as I can see her think back to the time I took her there after our flight from Australia. I pull back and look towards her. "Thanks for coming to talk. But not right after you have been pleasured." I spit out and watch her face go red.

"Yeah, that's right, I went up to come talk to you, to only hear you screaming his name while he pleasured you. So here I am now punching a bag while I am hard as a rock wanting to jump on top of you, because I am the one who should be doing that, not another guy".

I'm not even horrified at my words it was the truth, and it's the only way I can show her. I'm not lying about my love for her.

"I believe you Elliot", she is holding my face in her soft hands, rubbing her thumbs along my jawline, "I believe you, everything you have told me. I doubted you at the start when you ran off with Jasmine, but after I never stopped believing you. I love you too Elliot, it will never change, I will never stop loving you. but it's too late. " she removes her hands and steps back "its too late Elliot, your engaged, and I have Arlo, im sorry. " She begins to cry and leaves the room. I am left with her words playing in my head. I drop to my knees and sob into my gloves.