Cocktails And Regrets (One-off Series #5)

Cocktails and Regrets (End)

NATARANTA ako nang makitang nahimatay siya, I reached for her wrist to check her pulse at naramdaman ko pa naman ang pag-pintig nito. I also placed my hands sa ilong niya and found out na humihinga pa siya, she's just asleep. Gracious.

It's my first time to have sex at sa babae pa?! Gosh, knowing that she's also a virgin. Wtf.

Napagod talaga yata siya kagabi. Fuck, hindi ko talaga napigilan yung init na lumukob sa akin. It seems like a hombre replaced my soul and made me turn into a needy man, ugh nakakawala ng poise.

I immediately took a bath and wore casual clothes na kinuha ko sa loob ng wardrobe, lalabas na sana ako pero para akong nakonsensya seeing the girl na tanging kumot lang ang nakatapis sa katawan niya.

Nagulat ako when my d!ck twitched while looking at her, freak. Sana pinaputol ko na 'to, I thought it was already dead ever since I admit I was gay and will never lust over a girl.

Tumawag ako sa intercom and ordered food, nakatayo lang ako sa pinto at hinihintay na makarating yung bellboy kasama ng order ko. I heard a knock kaya agad ko itong binuksan at kinuha ang tray ng pagkain.

I placed it sa table na nasa tabi ng bed, I waited for a while na magising siya pero mahimbing pa rin siyang natutulog at humihilik pa. Damn, why am I feeling a hot sensation? Iwinasiwas ko ito at dali-daling lumabas ng kwarto. She's no good to me, I am aching down there.

Pagkalabas na pagkalabas ko ng hotel, I immediately booked a flight dahil I indecisively plan na pupunta ako ng Hawaii to calm myself. Shit, I never imagined that I will exceed my limitations at sa may kipyas ko pa talaga naisuko ang bataan ko eme.

Nang makarating ako sa Hawaii ay siya pa rin ang laman ng isip ko, I never felt any regret happened between me and Lowry. I'm just mad at her and to myself because I am starting to get confused about my own orientation, it's only her who made me feel this. My head is getting perplexed.

Never akong nakatulog ng maayos sa gabi without thinking about her— her sweet face, smiles, and moans. Ugh this is so fuck up coded.

One morning, after nung insidenting umiyak siya dahil sa pagsigaw ko. I realized that I fell so much for her and even a drop of tear from her eyes could break me. Hindi ko lubos maisip that the love I'm longing for ay sa kaniya ko natagpuan.

Even though I don't deserve her, I tried so hard to compose myself and be the best for her.

✧⁠*⁠。✧⁠*⁠。✧⁠*⁠。✧

"TALAGA! Pumunta ka ng Hawaii just to calm yourself? Malaki pa ang ginastos mo just to contemplate that you are starting to like me. Yieee," natawa ako sa inasta ni Lowry at nakikiliti ako sa pagsundot-sundot niya. Hearing her chuckle makes me smile widely.

She's teasing me after I told her everything happened to me after the night we shared from getting confused until sa natauhan na ako that I felt drawn and attached to her.

It's been 2 months simula nung naging kami, she abruptly said yes kahit hindi pa ako nakakapagsimulang manligaw at kinabukasan nung gabing nag-usap kami sa balkonahi ay sinagot niya na ako. She's still looking lovely at malaki na yung tiyan niya, dalawang buwan na lang at lalabas na si baby.

She's sitting in my lap at hindi ko alintana ang bigat niya, abala siya sa pagkain ng drumstick pfft.

"How about you? Kailan mo naman nalaman na mahal mo na ako?" I teasingly asked, wala kasi siyang nakuwento.

"Ewan, hindi ko maalala." Natatawa niyang tugon na nagpa-pout sa akin, hinalikan niya naman ako sa tungki ng ilong ko pero hindi pa rin ako ngumingiti. I'm trying to act like a kid to her, sana magkuwento siya. Hindi ba ako cute sa pagnguso ko?

"So eto na nga, ever since that I learned na may nabuo sa nangyari sating dalawa ay parang may numumuong puwang ka na sa puso ko. Knowing that I am pregnant with our child hahaha. It's funny to think na dahil lang doon, pero honestly that's what I felt," at kumalabog ang puso ko nung haplusin niya ako sa mukha.

I can't resist it kaya nilapit ko ang mukha ko sa kaniya at hinalikan siya sa labi. I deepened the kiss but I realized that I might hurt our baby kaya kumalas ako sa halik namin.

She happily initiated to kiss me na tinugon ko rin, nung inilayo niya yung mukha niya para huminga ay dinukot ko yung maliit na box na mag-iisang buwan ng dinadala ko sa bulsa at ngayon na ako nakahanap ng tyempo.

"Lowry," tawag ko sa kaniya and she hummed as a response.

"Marry me." That's not a question, it's more likely a command. Natawa naman siya at niyakap ako. I love it when she's being clingy to me.

"Inuutusan mo 'ko?" Bulong niya at humagikhik. I'm nervous, I'm so nervous.

Hindi niya ba gustong makasal sa 'kin? Am I not enough?

"Bukas na ba tayo ikakasal?" Napangiti ako sa sinabi niya at kinuha niya yung box na hawak ko and she opened it.

"This ring looks extravagant," she exclaimed. Isinuot ko naman sa daliri niya ito and kissed her knuckles. It fits her ring finger, and it suits her well.

"I love you so much that your presence being bound to me makes me feel so alive. Marry me, please." I whispered to her ears. Naramdaman ko naman ang pagbasa ng pisngi niya.

"I will marry you. I never thought that this day would come, I'm beyond ecstatic. Thank you." She paused and sob.

"I love you, Dencio. You fill me with love, I won't let these sentiments fade."

Hindi ko maiwasan ang hindi siya siilin ng halik at palaliman ito, she's responding with the same intensity.

I have reached many things but she is the dream that I yearn for and it is true. No words can express how much the fervor of love I felt for her.

We are going to have a complete family and sooner we will seal our love. Our story ended here but love will let us strive together forever.

A cocktail that swayed me off, but regrets never comes to my sanity.

Cocktails and no regrets.

✧⁠*⁠。✧⁠*⁠。✧⁠*⁠。✧

Thank you so much for reading this far, lots of love.

Ai_loveuuuu