If I Could Fall (Love and Mishap Series #1)

Chapter 1

Chapter 1
Letter

Pagmamahal. At pag-ibig. Ang ganda mapakinggan at mukhang tila 'kay rahan sa tenga. Pagmamahal at pag-ibig. 'Tila ito'y napakamisteryoso na nang-aakit.

Maganda. Ngunit tila kapag naramdaman, bumibigat. Bumibigat na halos hihilain ka sa pinakamadilim at pinakamalalim na parte ng isang bangin.

Ano nga ba ang pag-ibig? Saan, paano, at kailan ito nagsisimula? That's the constant thing I've been asking myself. As someone who believes in it, and loves the idea of love, I'm really curious what's behind that deep emotion.

But maybe I just love the idea of it—but still never understands its root and core. Baka nga talaga hindi dahil hindi naman siguro ako magpapaka-tanga sa isang bagay, lalo na sa isang taong 'tila wala namang ideya kung ano rin naman ito.

To someone who I always see the best in him but still never sees me. To someone who never looks at me when all I did was to look at him. Only him. And to someone who made me feel love but never pursued. To a person who made me feel that being an almost—it is the most painful yet a beautiful emotion we can experience.

How ironic how he could be my comfort when he's also the cause of my heart break.

"Primo," I whispered under my breath as I held onto my right chest, feeling my heart beat.

It took me a while before I finally opened my eyes. Huminga ako ng malalim at nanatiling tulala sa kisame ng aking kwarto.

Right on my chest, there's a two folded paper. Ang isa'y sinulat ko at ang isa naman ay matagal ko nang natanggap. Inangat ko ang para kay Primo. This is the one I wrote last night. Nakalagay ang sulat sa isang sobreng puti na may gold sealed.

I sighed again thinking it would look nice if I should use the other letter envelope. Kaso nga lang, kulay pink iyon at masyadong halata na love letter ang laman. I felt my cheeks heated. But then, kahit naman puti lang 'yong sobre ko, love letter rin naman ang laman nito. Ganoon rin naman, Mishael!

I rolled my eyes to myself and quickly sat down on my bed. I roamed my eyes around my room. I see my books perfectly organized on my book shelf, with fake crawling plants on both sides. Under that shelf is a large white fur carpet. Ganoon din sa ilalim ng aking full body length mirror. My vanity mirror is just in front of my bed, with a color white and pink comfortable chair, looking so clean and full of stuff, like pens, highlighters, and notebooks. Kaunti lang ang make-up dahil minsan lang naman ako gumagamit.

Napatalon ako ng kaunti nang tumunog ang alarm ko sa bedside table. Instantly, my heart beat doubled. Tipong naririnig ko na. I know why I am nervous. Today is the day I will put myself to something I never did my whole life.

I walked to my bathroom to finally take a bath. I stop mid way infront of my mirror. I bit my lip when I saw how it is noticeably pale and dry. I pinched my cheeks too so I could blush a little. This is what I've been doing ever since I got to learn something about myself. Something that I have... that I have been warned about.

I softly smiled to myself, never letting a bad energy occupy my head early in the morning.

"Good day today, Isla, smile!" I cheered myself up. I smiled more but a couple of tears started to form in my vision. Pinilig ko ang ulo ko at pinalis ang isang luha na nakatakas.

I smiled at everyone I bumped with on my way to a pastry shop. I smiled at people, animals, and even to a security guard who opened a door for me. The weather contributed to my good state since it is also fine even if it is a bit sunny. The sky is so clear yet the wind still blows a warm feeling to my skin.