People change. For good or for bad. Sometimes you know the reason behind it and sometimes you don't.
I thought that you turned out to be different. It was like I didn't know you. What happened to the person who said
"I'll never leave you"
"I'm not going anywhere"
"I want you in my life, always"
We were doing just fine, planning our future, housing, and kids. It felt like that meant nothing to you. Threw it away like it was something you did not need anymore. All those promises were just lies. It felt like I was being lied to like something was holding you back.
Fear.
Commitment Issues.
You couldn't let that go. I guess it was stronger to fight it.
It hurts because I had my hopes up for an entire year. And then suddenly it just stops. You just give up on our relationship. I wanted you to fight for us. Whatever it was that was stopping you to drop it, let it go and run off with me. Start a new life with me.
That was my dream.
But then I woke up to reality. And it hurts. I sometimes wish you never brought it up. We were doing so fine. But I guess there were things that we both needed to work on before settling.
I know for me I want to get my career sorted out first. Get my license and then along the way, I'll find someone. I'm still young and have time to live my life. It's just I have to adjust my plan according to what's best for me.
It's going to be a big change for me. All the habits I had before with you I have to change. No more late-night phone calls and texts. No more "I love you"
It's a new era. I've done the relationship era, now back to the single and healing era.
