💞ENGRAVED HEART💞 (💘MY THOUGHTS WILL ECHO YOUR NAME,💘)

Chapter 16

"Oh my freaking God!!! It's all happened and you didn't even say a single word to me.. Why am I here then??? You know I am living here just for you and madzie otherwise I would have moved in with Louise right now" Raphael lashed out…for which Magnus understands that he is one at fault.. 

Magnus was sitting in the bed with his legs folded against his chest and he was hugging his knees tight with a sleepy yet sad  face.. It's almost 8 in the morning.. 

"Raphael I know.. I am sorry that I didn't say anything to you… don't judge me I am not doing this anymore. I ended everything with Luke yesterday itself, " Magnus said, closing his face with his hand… 

Raphael : the person is good or criminal..that doesn't matter, He trusted you magnus.. He doesn't deserve this betrayal.. Small or big, betrayal is always a betrayal you can't undo. After all, he saved madzie's life  the other day.. He deserves to know the truth.. (he said and sat next to him on bed) 

Magnus : I was going to tell him.. I tried twice before but… (he closed his eyes disappointedly) 

Raphael :but?? Making out with him is more important than telling him the truth??? (he asked bit louder) 

Magnus :shhhh… Madzie is in the bathroom.. She knows who Alec is   (he said hesitantly and tried to keep it low in voice) Raphael!! I understand your anger.. I am trying my best Raphael. Even last night I went to tell the truth but… (he gave a pause and looked at the floor) I couldn't say a word when he started to kiss me.. Every time he looks into my eyes and . I forget my language, I forget why I am there… I am completely getting blank like I was under her spell..(he was about to cry) I was blank.. I can only think about one thing constantly, that I don't want him to hate me.. I don't want him to stop kissing me. I don't want him to stop touching me .. It felt like finally I had someone who makes me feel things I never felt before. I know I am being selfish.. (he literally hate himself for doing this to alec) 

Raphael held Magnus's hand, he understood his situation, he knew Magnus won't do such things for money.. "magnus.. I understand your point..you agree with luke because he makes you believe that you are doing something good for alec but not.. And I can see you are in love" he said and the next minute Magnus protested that it's not love.. 

"no.. It's not" he was about to continue but Raphael interrupted him.. "let me finish okay?? (he said and Magnus nodded) magnus.. It's okay to be selfish. You don't want to lose Alec's closeness by telling the truth. But think this way.. You said you feel like you were under his spell every single time.. What if you guys took things to the next level (magnus shook his head as no but Raphael mumbled) let me finish man .. (Magnus went silent again) what if you guys  took things to the next level and you both were good on the track and one day alec got to know about it through someone else.. Can you imagine how he feels?? How he is gonna  scatter .. That soul is gonna  break if something like that happens.."he said politely.. 

Magnus : You think I haven't thinked about it.. Raphael I am trying to say the truth but it's so hard.. And I am.. (he was searching for right word) I am afraid of his anger (he sighed with glassy eyes) 

Raphael : you think he might kill you?? (he asked in return) 

Magnus : That's the least I am afraid of.. I am happy to die in his hands....but  What if?? What if he pushes me away..? What if I Can't see him ever again?? What if he gets broken again.??I don't want to do that.. Everyone did that to him.. I don't want to be on that list please… 

Raphael : Think this way.. What if Alec thinks wisely and decides to forgive you if you tell the truth..?? (he asked.. The hope in his voice made Magnus a bit stronger.. He looked at Raphael thoughtfully) every mistake that cleared in the beginning won't create a big mess.. Things that are kept secrets are capable of ruining the relationship no matter how strong it is…  (he said it clearly)