Trash mouth & zombie boy (Ryers)

I'm sorry

1985 july 3 Derry,Main

Richie is moving in 2 days.The losers were hang out evryday as how Bill said "they are spending as much time with him as possible".

Richie was disappointed.He didn't wanted to leave his friend behind.He didn't wanted to leave him behind.And today he is gonna do something that he wanted to do for years.He will comfess to him and by "him" i mean Eddie.Eddie or Eds or Eddie spaghetti as Richie calls him.He was in love with the small boy since forever.He is leaving what could he lose?Maybe his best friends?Or the most importent person in his life?Or the prettiest boy he had ever laid eyes on?Ahh,not a big deal.Im just kiding Richie was anxious right now.He knew that Eddie won't be homophobic and Stan (who knows about Richie's feeling and about the "plan") had told him that he's 90 % sure that Eddie reciprocates his fellings.All the raven haired boy could do is just pray that he is right.

The losers called on the phone as usual in the past 12 days, but he told them that his mother are not letting him go because "he has to help".
He knew his friends are upset but he had to do it.He felt like if he's not doing this today then he'll never has the chance to.He felt like if he's keeping this secret any longer then he will explode.

He told Eddie yesterday tha he wants to tell him something, so they have to meet at the lake (I'm listening I love you from Bille Eilish rn😭)

Richie was now walked to the lake to meet to boy of his dreams.He was excited and anxious at the same time.He can't believe he's going to do this.

Eddie was there when Richie arrived.His face had a happy expression on when he saw the boy with the glasses.Hi waved and smiled at his best friend not expecting what's going to happen next.

-Hey!-Eddie said enthusiastically
-Hi!-Richie said his voice filled with nervousness.
-Are you alright?-Eddie questioned.He was now a bit worried.
-Yeah,I'm okay just I have to tell you something-Richie said.(is it normal that I am feeling anxious rn like what the hell?🤨)
-Oh, what is it?-Eddie asked
Richie didn't replied.Just imagine yourself in his place.You are about to tell your best friend that you like him.You would be nervous,right?
-What is it trash mouth?You cheated on my mom or something?-Eddie joked

"No dumbass I'm about to tell you that I like you."Richie taught to himself.And then he got an idea.

-Well kind of-Richie flirted.
-Really?How?-the smaller boy asked in the joking way.

-Like that-he said and without warning he smashed his lips into the shorter boy's The kiss weren't that long but emotional.Richie wanted to do this for years.He always wanted to know how it's feels to kiss him.

Eddie's eyes widened but then closed them and kissed him back."What am I doing" he thought to himself.

Yes he is in closet I think he spend some time in Narnia as well.And I'm sure that him and Mike are having meetings there.

Eddie always felt something to the other boy but could never name what.He can't be like this.That was what he thought.That's what everybody said to him in his entire life.He can't do this.He was denial.He can't do this.

While Eddie had a mental breakdown.Richie was happier than ever.The boy who liked for years was kissing him.

That was until Eddie couldn't take it anymore and broke the kiss

-What the hell Rich-Eddie said with tears in his eyes.He didn't wanted to be more different.

-I-Richie was taken aback.
-I'm sorry Eds-Richie apologized
-What the fuck Richie I'm not-Eddie couldn't take it anymore.The tears started to fall.
-I'm not gay okay?!-The smaller boy said in between sobs

Richie quickly hugged him.He was crying as well.He deep down knew that Stan wasn't right,he had this feeling.He knew that his last days in this shitty town will not be happy.

Eddie pulled away

-Eddie I'm so sorry I just -Richie couldn't finish hie sentence.He got cut off by the small boy.

-Just need some time alone-Eddie said with teary eyes.And walked away.He left.He left Richie alone.Alone.

Richie now falled down to his knees.And cried.He felt embarrassed,hurt and sad."Fuck you Stan" he though to himself.Why did he gave him hope? Now he ruined the only relationship he wanted to keep forever.

After 20 minutes of sobbing he finally stood up and went home.

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