His One & Only

My dear, i will be there soon

Anshuman's POV

He didn't come back. I waited the whole night. As the dawn breaks, my heart feels heavier than the night before. Every passing minute without him felt like an eternity of longing and uncertainty. Thoughts swirl in my mind, wondering where he could be, if he's safe, if he still cares. Each moment of waiting deepened the ache of abandonment, leaving me shattered and alone in the darkness of my own thoughts.

After waiting for what felt like a eternity, I heard the door creak and there he was standing at the door, avoiding my eyes he entered the room.

I wanted to say so many things but I didn't. I kept quiet. Because it was his turn now.

"Last night-" he finally says breaking the everlasting silence.

"It didn't mean anything, right?" He asks dimly

"Do you want it to not mean anything?" I murmured

"Listen, it- it was just a mistake,you know I like jhil right?"

"I know" I answered in an anguished tone.

"We are still friends, right?" He asks

"Ofcourse"

"Do you love Jhil" I asked again

"No, but I want to"

"You should, it's easier to love her"

Tears filled up my eyes after saying this and I wanted to leave the room as fast as I could. As I as leaving I turned around for the last time.

"Samarth"

"Hmm"

"If someday you want our kiss to mean anything, I'll be waiting"

He stayed quiet for a moment and turned around facing the window.

"Only if you were a girl" he says in an inaudible tone but I heard it.

"Only if you were brave enough" was all I could say before I choked.

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Samarth's POV

It's been 3 days since I talked to him, since I last saw him. He is staying with Pulkit these days, he is not even attending college. Is he fine? I hope he is.

It feels lonely without him. Nothing is the same. But this was bound to happen. I fucked up and I don't know what to do.

I know for a fact that I don't love Jhil in the way that I wanted to. But I don't know what I feel about Anshuman. All my life I have liked girls, I was pretty sure about my sexuality but now I feel like everything I've ever known about myself is wrong.

"Samarth" a voice brings me back to reality putting a stop to my thoughts.

And I realise I was with Jhil but I couldn't focus on anything. My mind goes back to him every two minutes.

"Are you okay?" She asks with a genuine concern.

"Ye- yeah I am fine"

"Did anything happen between you and Anshuman?"

"How do you know?"

"You're not as sleek as you think" she says trying to suppress her laugh.

I looked at her with a confused face.