In the city I was raised|Javon Walton

Ten

Friday, May 7
ISABELLA
I was laying in bed with Javon, it was 4 in the morning but he couldn't sleep because of everything he's been through today, he got home and I was sleep but he woke me up crying needing to talk to me, he talked me and I told him what I felt he needed to hear and he understood but I could tell he was just upset about the situation, he had to call the guys girlfriend and tell her everything that happened and she was as upset as he was but they talked each other through it. We were just laying there in silence enjoying the moment, I was laid against the head board while he was stretched out across me with his head rested on my stomach as I played with his hair as he held on tight to the chain on his neck slowly falling to sleep . Then my mom texted me "is everything okay your light is on" "yea it's just my lamp light, Javon just came in upset and he needed me" "okay make sure he's okay and don't forget to turn your lights off" "yes ma'am good night" "good night sweetheart"
Saturday, May 8
I didn't even remember falling asleep but I woke up and Javon wasn't there but he never left without telling me then the bathroom door opened "oh ur awake" he said trying to force a smile upon his face "I gotta go to Nico's house he needs me" "are you okay to be driving" "I'll be fine" "I don't know Javon what if I drop you off so I know your fine" "you can come along I'd like you too" "okay lemme get dress then" "I'll be in the car waiting for you" "okay I'll be down inna minute" I got dressed and headed down, I went outside and Javon was waiting in the car the guy gave him, it was nice it was a blacked out bmw for obvious reasons, so they wouldn't be seen. I got in and we headed to this Nico's house, I didn't know who this Nico was but I wanted to find out I was just a bit curious of who he's been hanging with a lot lately.
We got there and he got out and came around and opened my door and gave me his hand to get out which I took and we walked towards the back of the house where everyone was, I was a bit uncomfortable because I didn't know any of these people then one dude stood out because he looked familiar from behind then he turned around to greet Javon then it all clicked I did know who Nico was. "Hey ion feel good imma wait in the car" I told Javon in which he just nodded at me.
JAVON
Nico came over and I was going to introduce him to isa but she didn't feel good so she went back to the car but she didn't seem sick she seemed mad if anything. "Wassup man" Nico said "wassup" "how you doing man" "been better" "I hear you" "ay who was the girl that was just by you a second ago" "oh I was gonna introduce y'all but she don't feel good so she went back to the car but that's Isabella" "she ain't sick I know why she went back,I know her" "y'all know each other?" "mhm her cousin use to hang with us and I'll take all responsibility for this too, he said that it was his mom's birthday but I told him that we had to go and get someone really quick since the man was finally along and we could get a hit on him well he didn't want too but he gave in and we went well what we didn't know is he wanted us to go over there and think he was the only one there and his men was waiting for us and I was lucky to get out but he didn't and I still can't live with the fact I let this kid die on his mom's birthday, his mom and everyone knew he did this type of shit and wanted him to stop but it's not that easy and Isabella she was against it but she always came along to make sure he was safe, she was younger back then but she's hated me ever since for letting him die when I could have helped him and I could have but I was stupid, I was new too this he was new to this, and after he died that's when chino came in and he was like a brother to me, he reminded me so much of Carlos, her cousin, that's probably why I felt I could trust chino instantly, and now a day doesn't go by knowing I let both of them die" he said getting emotional, I've tried apologizing to her for years but she never accepted til I just gave up because they move after all of that went down, they use to live around here that's how I met her cousin but when he died they couldn't stand this place any longer and went to silver vale. "I didn't know any of that" "she probably didn't want to bring it up or didn't remember who I was because she was trying to block it out so the name probably didn't just click" "ima go talk to her" "ion think you should do that, I know her well wanna that girl have a temper and mouth on her" "she's not like that" "she's Hispanic they're all like that" i went out to the car and she was just watching her phone, I knocked on the window and she opened the door "hey why didn't you tell about u and Nico's past" "I didn't know it was the same Nico, Javon" she said looking down at her phone not even trying to look at me "he said he's apologized so what's wrong" "what's wrong is he let my cousin die, Javon and ion want you hangin around him" she said turning her phone off and crossing her arms looking up at me " hey now you don't get to choose that" "if you want to die behind him to right ahead but I ain't finna deal with this shit again" "he's apologized why don't you just get over it" I said out of frustration not meaning it at all, she looked shocked and hurt by my words "because my fucking cousin is dead Javon how the fuck you think my aunt felt when her son didn't come to her birthday because he was fucking dead" she said getting out the car, slamming the door and pushing past me "where are you going Isabella come on we can talk about this" "there's nothing to talk about, my aunt lives around the corner I'm getting as far as I can from this place" "Isabella I didn't mean it I'm sorry" she didn't look back she kept walking "fuck" I said putting my hands on my head not knowing what to do, then Nico came around the corner "I told you she didn't want to hear about me" "no it's not that, I fucked up and told her why doesn't she just get over it" "why the hell would you tell her that" "I wasn't fucking thinking" "don't let me be the reason why yall don't work out, I know you like her Javon" "wym you had morning to do with this" "you ain't gotta lie I heard her, she don't want you around me and you should respect her wishes because she cares she doesn't want you getting hurt" "well even if I wasn't to hang around you they would still target me" "not as much because you're young , you can change now but you gotta be willing too" "no I can't not now" "what about her" "I guess this is where our story ends" "Javon now you know this isn't what chino want for you" "well Nico, chino isn't here anymore okay" "don't fucking talk like that Javon, now ion know what the fuck has gotten into you but your not alone she got u and so do we so stop acting like because chinos gone you have nothing don't ruin what you have over something you can't change" he said holding my head when I would look at him "imma just stay here for awhile so she'll have time to calm down" "you should talk to her tho" "I will" "ay, you about to leave?" "yes why" "I need to give u sum before you go" "alright" I said following him into the house. He hands me a duffle bag it was chinos that we put the money in "that's your half and chinos he put it in the letter that if anything happens to him for me to give any we get or anything he has here to you and that's what I have to do" "I can't take this" "yes you can use it wanna, better your life we all need this" I just nodded at him "thanks" I said heading down the stairs. I got in the car and sat there for a minute letting it get cool in there, I checked my phone and seen I had a message from Isabella "hey my aunt took me home, can you come over so we can talk please" " yea I'm on my way now" .
I got to her house and went to her room . She was sitting on the bed waiting she noticed me and stood up "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have went off on you like that I was just upset I just don't want you to end up like my cousin because I care for you Javon, you mean everything to me and if I was to let something happen to you like I did Carlos then I would never be able to forgive myself" she said standing in front of me looking down at her hands "hey hey nothings gonna happen I promise okay but I have to do this I can't turn back now" I said with my hand on my chin making her look up at me, we just looked at each other starting to lean it but that's when her mom came in "I'm finna head to the store y'all need anything" "no ma'am" "Javon" she said asking me "no ma'am I'm good thank you tho" "no problem bye y'all" "bye" we both said