In the city I was raised|Javon Walton

Five

Friday, April 30
JAVON
I was walking into school when I seen Isabella making her way into the school too so I stopped to wait for her. "Good morning" I said to her when she got close enough to hear me " good morning" she said smiling at me and waving, I liked how she always seemed happy no matter what. "where's Izzy and them" she asked me "ion know Izzy should be fine with you tho" "what makes you say that" she said turning to me with confusion and attitude "don't worry about it just know she's not gonna mess with you" I wasn't planning to be cool with Izzy today but somethings went down last night, we was all hanging around and I got a bit outta control and then I was talking to Izzy not really knowing what I was saying but what I do remember is that I told her that she had nothing to worry about that I just talk to Isabella because I felt bad and then next thing you know we were making out. I felt bad as hell not for lying to her but lying about Isabella I didn't feel bad for her if anything she probably felt bad for me because ion have shit, you could say I was leading Izzy on but it wasn't even like that I didn't know what it was but I don't want her but I don't want her going off and hate me because she knows to much shit and she's that type of person that if she doesn't fuck with you anymore she ruins your life so I try to give her what she wants to keep her around I know it's wrong but she knows to much not just about me but everyone I hang with and if she opens her mouth we all are done for.
Izzy
"Girl now you know that he does that shit every time he lied to your fucking face it's obvious he wants that girl and you know that so don't even try to believe what he said" Josie was telling me after I told her what happened between me and Javon last night " but Josie it was different this time" "how Izzy" " we kissed" " he was probably drinking a lot and had a lot weed before that" "now I think your just jealous because you have something to say every time I tell you something" "because I'm just trying to keep you safe Izzy because I know you know for a fact he doesn't want you like that but all these things are making you think he does but he's just leading you on" "you don't know what you're talking about" "whatever you say don't say I didn't warn you" deep down I wanted to believe Josie but there was a part of me that wanted her to be wrong. But just to make sure Isabella doesn't try no sneaky shit I was just going to leave her a little heads up just to help her before she catches feelings for Javon you know to let her down easy.
JAVON
"that's not a way to live Javon, those things you do and people you hang out with aren't good for you, I know you don't have anything else but let me help you" she said giving me a piece of paper with her number on it, me and Isabella was sitting outside in the courtyard during lunch just talking and I told her everything and I didn't know what came over me she was just easy to talk too because she didn't judge she just listened. The bell rung and she still was looking me in the eyes til she got out of her daze and grabbed her bag "come on before we're late to class" she said tapping my hand that was laid on the table as she got up to go to class.
ISABELLA
Javon went on with Michael and Carl while I went to my locker to put my bag away because I've been carrying it around all morning;I opened my to see a piece of paper fall out, I picked it up and I opened it to read, "hey just to let you know that you didn't get between me and Javon like you hoped for a fact he told me that he only hung out with you because he felt bad so that's the only reason imma let him hang out with you because I would hate to be a loner like you, p.s don't try no sneaky shit ask him who he kissed last night because ion think it was you so don't for a second think he cares about you because he doesn't" what the fuck was she on I barely know him and first off ew I didn't need to know what they do on their free time, but why does he think I'm a loner just because I don't surround myself around any and everyone doesn't make me a loner so ouch. I got to class and I couldn't get my mind off of Javon and how he really felt after all we've talked about and after all the effort I've put in to try and help him that's how he repays me.
Class ended and the only thing I was looking forward to was getting the hell out of this place. I headed to work like the loner I am, can't believe he really thinks that of me it's not even bad being a loner, I just had to get my mind off of it I don't know why it bothered me so much but it did.
The evening was going by pretty slow we didn't have much business today and everything was good til Javon decided to come in with his girlfriend behind him, great. Of course I was the only one on shift right now, I wasn't going over there I couldn't but I had too. I pulled myself together and went over to them.
JAVON
Izzy asked me if I was going to the dinner today and I said yea and she asked if she could come so we could talk and I didn't want to be rude so I said sure. We got there and I seen Isabella and she saw me but she quickly looked away and went into the kitchen, what was going on with her. We sat down and after a little bit she came out "what may I get for y'all" she said not even acknowledging me or who I was she just did her job as if I was a just a random customer, Izzy didn't say anything rude and I was confused because why wasn't she being petty til I looked at her and she was smiling as if she had accomplished something and I was desperate to find out what it was because I didn't trust her one bit. Izzy was in the bathroom and Isabella came back to the table with our food so that was my chance to talk to her "what wrong" "you ain't gotta talk to me because you feel bad" was all she said before walking off, Izzy returned I looked over at her and let out an annoyed sigh before getting up "what" Izzy questioned as I walked off not listening to her. She kept walking but I needed to talk to her so I followed behind talking to her even though she wouldn't stop and look at me " I was on a lot of stuff the night I said that so she would get off my back but I didn't think my actions through just know I didn't mean it" "I think you meant it because who would say that about a person to reassure another person about them then proceeded to kiss them and it not mean anything" my heart dropped because how did she find out about that but then it hit me the only one who could have said something was Izzy. "It didn't mean anything I swear, I don't want her I swear I want to change I want to stop all these things I do but I need you, I need your help" I said pulling her head up to look at me " I don't know Javon" was all she said as she turned her head away from me "if you think I would actually have something like that to say about you ur completely wrong because who am I to judge anyone I have nothing I'm a worthless piece of shit" "no your not" "well I'm not going to force you to speak to me but know I wanna try for you" is all I told her as I walked back into the front, I didn't even feel like eating anymore I just got my things and left "where the fuck are you going" Izzy called from behind me as I walked out.