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Izuku and Kaminari lay in a beautiful field of flowers as they napped under the sun. They were still weak and needed more energy so their Omega's offered to watch over them. Kozā smiled as he placed small flower petals in their hair.
Nokori quietly watched the butterflies landing on his hand. For the first time in a long time, they were free from danger and dark memories.
Nokori turned to his lover, "Kozā?" he called out.
"Yes?" The male turned to him.
Nokori looked at the way Kozā absentmindedly brushed through Izuku's hair without realizing it. It was just so natural for him to be that affectionate with Izuku.
"Do you love Izuku differently than you love me?" He asked.
"Hmm yes but no? It's a bit challenging to put into words I guess," Kozā hummed in thought.
Nokori looked away, "No, I really meant to ask do you love him more than me? Or well do you even love him at all?" he mumbled confusedly.
Kozā smiled, "Oh is that what's got you concerned? What I said the other day about our feelings being mirrored? What I meant is we can feel how much they feel about us and reciprocate it perfectly. Except for hate of course.
It doesn't mean our feelings for them aren't our own feelings it's just if we wanted them to feel as though we view them how they view us we could.
If a God and their reincarnation aren't stable it could damage us and that person's soul. So we can mirror their feelings for us to create the illusion of our feelings being equal.
We can understand how they feel for us and copy it so it's like they're in front of a mirror."
Kozā saw that Nokori looked troubled and smiled nervously.
"Look, Nokori for thousands upon thousands of years you were the first and only person I loved. You are the very definition of love for me. I will never love anyone more than I love you.
The way I feel for Izuku is something a bit different I think. When we separated to merge with them I forgot my past. The only thing I knew all this time was Izuku's pain and the memories of my own.
I forgot the cause but never the effects and the trauma it left. I was there when he occasionally got lonely but me?
Izuku was all I had, all I knew. When I woke up inside him all I knew was the memories of pain and no idea where it came from. The sheer trauma of it all literally broke me, my spirit was ripped apart. Even now that damage is still here and it's unfixable.
Izuku was the only thing that took that pain away. Despite his own suffering, he was always there to make it stop. He'd slip into his own head for hours and hours every day just so I wasn't alone.
Even when people hurt him and I lost control he never got mad or hated me. He loved me unconditionally and comforted me. He was what I needed to be stable and I still do. Even with all my memories back I'm still not the person I used to be.
You pretend not to notice but It's obvious how messed up and broken I am. I don't think I can ever go back to who I was before the torture and before we merged. I don't think I can ever function properly without Izuku. I just...I can't live without him but I can't live without you either.
Your the other half of my heart and he's the other half of my soul. He's who I used to be and I'm who he is inside, we can't be separated. I know that this probably isn't something you can accept.
