Yamada quickly stepped away now feeling sick to his stomach. Just knowing what Izuku had gone through was too much but to actually see it? It was absolutely unbearable and he emptied the contents of his stomach into the toilet as he cried.
Aizawa held Izuku close to his chest as he sobbed against him. From now on he was never letting Izuku take on these responsibilities. He didn't care how much Izuku would protest or complain he wasn't letting him do it.
"Is this why...you haven't healed yourself? Are you punishing yourself?" Aizawa frowned.
Izuku shook his head, "N-no I just- I can't use my quirks anymore. Every time I try I feel sick, what if I hurt you all? Is this how you guys felt when I used my quirk on you? H-have I been hurting you all this time?"
"Of course not, you have never hurt us Izuku," Aizawa said truthfully.
"Even if I'm not hurting you I hurt all those other people. Every time I use it like that I kill someone, I didn't care before but now I-I felt it. I did this to people, I-I was a monster. I- I did it why because I didn't like someone?
I'm not a good person dad, I did so many bad things to people. I-I tried to justify it but it's still not right. I-I ruined everyone around me, I mean none of you care when I kill people anymore.
You just make excuses for me and it's not ok." Izuku just cried even harder and it was breaking Aizawa's heart.
"Izuku you are not a bad person, if you were a bad person you wouldn't be crying right now. You wouldn't be feeling remorseful for your past actions. You did bad things in an even worse situation because that was all you can do.
It may not have been something you wanted to do but you had no choice and we will never fault you for that. Your not just a child but you're my child and that will never change. I will never abandon you no matter what happens.
If me accepting you the way you are makes me a bad person to everyone else then I'm a bad person."
"Then what if I decide to drop out of UA? What if I don't want to be a hero anymore? What if I-"
"You are what I care about Izuku and no matter what you decide to do in life I will always support you," Aizawa said sternly "We both will,"
Yamada slipped back into bed, eyes red and puffy. He held Izuku tightly and buried his face in his hair.
"We're going to help you feel comfortable again ok? We can't take away the memories of what happened but we can't help you heal from them." Yamada said quietly.
Izuku nodded against Aizawa's chest, "I love you,"
"We love you too,"
Kozā appeared at the foot of the bed, "Everyone is here, they could sense something with Izuku,"
"We should tell them everything, keeping it from them could make our pack unstable." Yamada wiped his eyes.
Aizawa nodded in agreement and they hesitantly stood up.
"I'll stay with him, can you send Touya and Keigo up? Their presence will help, I've already shown them everything." Kozā turned to them.
"Alright," Aizawa said leaving the room.
Yamada gently patted Kozā's shoulder, "Thank you,"
Kozā smiled, "Of course,"
Yamada left and Kozā moved over to Izuku gently running his fingers through his hair.
"I'm here," Kozā said softly.
"Why did he leave me?" Izuku quietly cried.
"I don't know baby,"
