Ibadat - A tale of love.

Chapter 10

Meerab ( POV )

I saw the sunrise, as I lay on my bed watching the sun slowly crept like a child from behind the clouds . I lay in my bed holding my mother's box. I still don't have the courage to box and look in it.

Knowing that I am not my parents child , my love for my parents increased. They cared and loved me knowing well that I am not their child and someday my family will take me away from them.

But I am not sure what to think about my relationship with that man who suddenly claims to be my father. I really don't know what to do about it. I don't think I can forgive him that fast. I need time for that.

The person who gave me up at my birth, how can I forgive him so soon ? I just cannot do it. Thinking more about the topic I finally decided to get early. First I have to resolve the wedding problem that's hanging in my head.

I will surely not marry Murtasim that's for sure. I finished my morning routine and prayer. It's actually little early to meet with him. So I think I will practice a little and cool of my mind and than just making random comments out of anger.

I wore my ghungroo and walked straight in the roof. Here I can practice in peace. When I dance I feel free , I feel happy , my mind becomes refreshed.

Since I am just practicing, let's practice some simple steps and warm up a little. I started my practice, it's so nice to just feel the flow of the music and move along with it. As I did a chakra I came face to face with murtasim.

He held me with his left arm or I would have fallen down. He let me go and stood in distance. " Sorry, I was just watching the sunrise. " Said murtasim and was about to leave.

" What you did last night...that was really not good. " I told him. " Anwar uncle has brought me with him . He wanted to me to talk with you or I don't care what you do." Said Murtasim.

" Well , the feeling is mutual than. I am glad to hear that. Murtasim I want to discuss something seriously with you . " I told him. I don't want to beat around the bush , I will tell him today about my decision regarding our marriage and I am sure we share the same idea about this marriage proposal.

" Well, we can talk here. " he said. We both moved towards the roofed part where there are chairs and a tea table. We both sat comfortably.

" Murtasim...we both don't want to marry each other. Can't we do anything to stop the wedding? " I asked him. " Don't you think if it was possible then I would have already done it. " he said and well I kind of believe him in it .

" But you're Murtasim...who will say no to you ? " I asked him and I really believe no one even in the begum Mahal can control him. He looked up and gave a little smile, which is quite sweet but than I recalled maa begum and well I am done...not going in that lane.

" You seriously believe that ? Maa begum se mili nahi ? ( Haven't you meet with maa begum?) " he asked me and I knew what he means by that. " Tabhi tu Saadi nahi kar Rahi...mil JHU liya ( That's why I am not marrying you cause I met with her) " I told in wishper but I think he has heard me.

" Excuse me" he asked looking pisssed. " I mean you're a good guy but I am not ready for marriage... specially in begum Mahal..I have my dreams and I don't want to leave them yet. " I finally told him the truth.

" And what makes you think that marrying in begum Mahal will make you sacrifice your dreams? " Murtasim asked me and the simple answer is his mother. " Let's not pretend that you don't know who will stop my dreams. " I cut him mid sentence. We both sat silently.

" And also I tease haya but in reality she really likes you. And I don't want to be the reason of her heartbreak. " I informed murtasim. If their feelings is mutual for each other than I don't want to be third wheel in their relationship.

" I have told you before and let me explain you again, haya is like my sister. We don't have anything going on between us. " Said murtasim.

" I don't think it's clear to her ...well let's not waste time. Please talk with your mom and see if you can cancel the wedding. " I almost begged him.

" Well , I will see what can I do. Even I don't want to marry now so ...I will do my best. " Said murtasim. He will try... really he can't even ensure me about one thing.

" Not try ...you have to do it. " I told him. " If it's that's easy why don't you tell your parents about it? " Asked murtasim. " I did but they can't stop the wedding , they respect their bhabhi begum's decision too much.. can't go against her. " I told him the true fact.

" Chachu wants to take everyone back in begum Mahal today to discuss about these stuff . Our only chance to say no to this marriage...we have to take it. " Said Murtasim and well I think we have to do it together.

" Well , I guess your right. " I nodded. We sat looking at the sky for sometime and than he went inside. I walked in mariam's room , she just woke up. So I gave her a hug while she was still rubbing her sleepy eyes.

" Morning " she said in a sleepy tone.
" Morning Jaan " I told her. " Meerab I loved your performance last night, you're a star. " She whispered and I chuckled.

" Thank you. " I told her. " Get ready we are going back to your home " I told her. She was now fully awake. She smiled and said " Ji bhabi ji" and I don't know how to say to her that I will not be his brothers wife.