STRAY KIDS ONE-SHOTS

[ I'm Sorry, I Love You ] Seungmin x Reader

WARNING: - SUICIDE ATTEMPT 
                        - MENTION OF OVERTHINKING 
                        - DEPRESSION
                        - SELF-HARM
                        - MENTION OF BLOOD

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READER'S POV: 

'This is my chance...' I thought to myself as I looked around seeing that everyone was busy doing their own thing. My school was on a field trip to a camp and my entire grade was sharing a huge dorm that had an even bigger lobby for us to hang out at. Without anyone looking in my way, I got off from the chair that I was sitting on, took my phone and jacket and headed out of the dorm. 

It was already midnight so most probably the rest wouldn't notice me gone from how tired they would eventually be. The cold air was felt against my body as I continued to walk, I had to be quick or else a teacher or a staff member would spot me. 'Am I really doing this... what will happen to the others after I'm gone?' I thought to myself as I continued to walk without a single pause.

'They wouldn't change.' 
'You don't mean anything to them.'
'You're just a burden to them.' 
'They don't care about you.'

I knew these thoughts were bad for me but I could never ignore them, they would never leave me. These are the thoughts that kept me up at night until I was crying into my pillow. These thoughts always just seem so... true. These thoughts worked with everyone, even my own lover. Seungmin... I was lucky enough to have the chance to meet him but now it's time that I should free him from myself for once and for all. I continued to walk until I finally reached the door of the tall abandoned building before I could reach for the doorknob, my phone suddenly started to ring and I recognised the user before I even checked my phone. It was a specific ringtone that I had picked out for him and only him. 

"Hey babe!" I greet through the phone trying to make it seem as if I'm not going to throw my life away in just mere minutes. 
"Baby, where are you? It's already bedtime and yet none of us can find you." I can hear Seungmin's worried voice from my screen. 

'He doesn't care about you.'
'He's just making it seem like he does.'
'He just pity you.'
'Just say goodbye already.'

"Hey Seungmin..." I started as tears began to flood through my eye sockets.
"Yes? Is something wrong?" Seungmin asked as I turned to look at the main campus and smiled with a small sob "Y/n, are you crying?! What happened? Where are you?" he asked frantically from my sobs. 
"You know that I love you so much right? Thank you for taking care of me." I smiled as pain swelled in my heart, and his side of the phone fell silent. 
"Y/N! What are you saying?! Are you- don't tell me- Y/N?! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" he asked in a scared and frantic tone as he realised what his suicidal girlfriend was trying to tell him. "Y/n no no no no no, don't do this, PLEASE!" he continued to frantically beg but I couldn't listen. 
"Seungmin, I'm setting you free... I'm sorry for everything I've done wrong, goodbye Seungmin." I finally bid my final farewell and hung up the phone. I wiped my tears and walked into the building. 

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SEUNGMIN'S POV: 

"Seungmin, I'm setting you free... I'm sorry for everything I've done wrong, goodbye Seungmin," she whispered into the phone as my heart started to hurt. "Seungmin have you- are you crying?!" my senior, Chan asked as he watched me cry on the couch. "I have to find Y/n!" I stood up from the chair and ran "Tell everyone Y/n is about to commit suicide!" I told Chan and I could see the horror in his eyes but without a word from him, he ran into what I assumed would be either the teacher's dorm or the student's dorm. Meanwhile, I ran out of the campus, since no one had seen her it was most likely that she was doing this outside of campus. 'How could I not realise?!' I scolded myself as I ran around frantically, I knew that she was suicidal but I thought that she had gotten better after I found her cutting her thighs.