Outer Banks Imagines

Rafe x Reader: Wrecked

 This imagine is based off of the song Wrecked by Imagine Dragons! I do not own this song!

"Hey, Rafe, you good?" My head snaps up to see Sarah looking at me from her spot on the couch.

"Uh, yeah, yeah, I-I'm good." I stutter out quickly.

Sarah puts her phone down and faces me in a criss-cross-applesauce way.

"What's wrong?"

"It's nothing. Really I'm fine."

"Your thinking about Y/n again, aren't you?"

"Yes! Sarah! Yes, I am thinking about her!" I yell as I stand up from my spot sitting down.

"Rafe, it's okay. Everything will be okay."

Sarah is trying to sooth my temper that only Y/n could sooth.

"No! If everything will be okay, she will still be here!"

Sarah goes silent at my comment. I know she is thinking the same way. I grab my hair with my hands and start to comb through it.

"Talk about it." Sarah whispers.

"What?"

I look over to her in confusion. My hands leave my hair and fall to my sides.

"Get it out. Talk about it. Tell we what you are feeling. Don't keep it down. Talk to me, Rafe."

I just look at her for a minute. No one ever has asked me or cared or wanted to listen to my feelings besides Y/n.

"I-"

I don't really know where to start. There is so much I need to say and now that I am finally given the chance I don't know what to say.

Sarah continues to look at me. Her eyes are glistening with tears as she waits for me to rant. Sarah actually wants to listen to me about this.

"Days pass by and my eyes, they dry and I think that I'm okay. Until, I find myself in conversation fading away. The way she smiles, the way she walks, the time she took to teach me all that she had taught. Tell me, how am I supposed to move on?! These days I'm becoming everything that I hate! Wishing she is around, but now, it's too late! My mind is a place that I can't escape her ghost....."

I look at Sarah to see if she is still listening. Sarah is intently watching and listening to me. She gives me a nod saying 'go on'.

"Sometimes, I wish that I could wish it all away, one more rainy day without you. Sometimes, I wish that I could see her one more day, one more rainy day......Oh, I'm a wreck without her here! Yeah, I'm a wreck since she's been gone! I've tried to put this all behind me! I think I was wrecked all along! Yeah, I'm a wreck!"

Now that I have started I know I can't stop. I need to get this all out. Everything...

"They say that the time will heal it. The pain will go away, but everything, it reminds me of her and it comes in waves. The way she laughs, when her shoulders shook, the time she took to teach me all the she had taught me. Tell me, how am I supposed to move on?! Oh, I'm a wreck without her here! Yeah, I'm a wreck since she's been gone! These days when I'm on the brink of the edge I remember the words that she said, remember the life she led, she'd say, 'Oh, suck it all up! Don't get stuck in the mud!' Thinking of things that she should of done. I'll see her again, my loved one...... Yeah, I'm a wreck! I'll see her again, my loved one...."

As the last sentence came out, I felt the tears coming down my cheeks. I sit down on the couch and put my face in my hands. I feel Sarah's arm wrap around me and pull me closer to her. I hug her back as I feel a tear land on my shoulder from her.

"Why? Why her? Why now? Why?" My voice is cracking as I speak.

"I don't know, but I want her back, too." Sarah whispers to me.

"I don't know why I feel this way. Why does she make me feel this way? Why does she make me feel......"

"Broken..."

I nod my head.

"I miss her..... I miss her so much..... I wish it was me to get shot..... not her......"

I feel more tears come down my face as Sarah hugs me closer.

"I am here for you, Rafe. I promise."

"I am here for you, too, Sarah. You are all I have left." I whisper.

The love of my life is gone........