Outer Banks Imagines

JJ x Reader-You Sure?

**Y/n POV**

The Pouges and I are walking to a party. We were going to take the cars but no one wanted to stay sober tonight and the party is within walking distance so it is fine. It is also a nice night. One of the Kooks are throwing it and everyone is invited.

The Pouges are talking and joking around in front of me. Normally I am messing around with them but today hasn't been my day. I just feel like staying out of the way so I don't mess up anything.

"Hey," My head snaps up as JJ nudges me shoulder to shoulders. "you good?"

"Yeah, yeah, I'm fine. Why?" I lied.

"You sure? You just haven't been yourself tonight. Just want to make sure everything is okay."

"Yeah, everything is fine."

I give him a fake smile. JJ turns back to John B.

Why can't he just notice something is wrong? They have told me I am an awful liar. Why can't they notice I am lying? They must not care enough. They just tolerate me. They don't actually care. Why would they? I am an awful person to be around. It is fine. Act fine. Act like you don't notice. You're fine. You are fine, Y/n.

"Yay! We're here!" Sarah exclaims which makes me come out of my rabbit hole.

"Party time!" Kie yells as she slings her arm around Sarah's shoulder and walk into the house together.

Why can't that be me? Why can't Sarah and Kie do that to me? They must not care that I am being left out. It is just the two of them now. Even though I was the one to bring the two of them together. I was the one to help them realize that they can be amazing friends but it's fine.

"Y/n!" I flip my head up to see JJ is standing there looking at me with a worried expression. "You good?"

"Yeah, fine." I lie.

"You sure?"

"Yeah, perfectly fine."

I turn and walk into the house. I look around to see a bunch of people.

Fantastic.

I see Sarah and Kie laughing in a corner of the room with drinks in their hands.

They look really happy without me. They don't laugh like that with me. I must not be funny enough or they just don't care enough to laugh. It's fine. I'm fine.

I feel someone bump into me, getting me out of my rabbit hole.

"Oh, sorry." I say to the person.

"Yeah, you better be! You can't just stand there in the middle of the room!" The guy yells in my face.

Normally I would punch him in the face but maybe he is right. Sure, I am leaning on the wall out of the way but maybe I am in the way. I am in everyone's way. 

"Y/n....."

They don't want me here. Does anyone even want me? Do I even need to be alive? Would anyone care if I die? 

"Y/n...."

Would anyone miss me? Would anyone even notice? Would anyone remember me? Would-

"Y/n!"

My vision starts to come back into focus to see a hand waving in front of my face. I look up to see JJ standing next to me, again.

"There we go. You zoned out again. Are you positive you are okay?"

"Yeah, I am positive."

"You sure?"

"Extremely sure." I lie quickly.