No Mask Required

Just Hold Me

Chatty's heart is so full sitting on the top of the mountain with his cups.
"Cups, it's late. Do you want me to take you home?"
"Can we stay just a little longer, Chatty?"
"Of yucking course, I'm not going to move until I'm forced too!"
"I don't want to go, Chatty!"
"Cups, it'll be fine! I'll be right here when you get back, okay?!?"
"I have no doubt that you'll be here, Chatty, but what if you feel differently about something you said or did. What if I come back and you don't love me anymore?"

"That not yucking possible!"
Ray's bottom lip pokes out quivering. "What if you do, though..."
"I'm telling you Cups It's not going to yucking happen!"

Chatterbox lifts his cups chin and looks down into her eyes. Ray Mond tries her best to avoid his gaze.
"Look at me, Cups, and listen real yuckin' close, okay?"
Ray lifts her eyes to meet his.
"I will always love you! I don't yucking care if you 10,000 miles away, I'll love you. I don't care if you're angry, needy, toxic, playing a trick on me, or trying to control. I'll love you.
"I will always love you! Do you yucking hear a word I'm saying?!"
"I do, Chatty. I wish so badly that I felt comfortable saying those words I know you want to hear. I want to, I really want to. I just don't want to say it and then do something crazy or stupid, or I don't even know UGH! I'm just afraid if I don't say it back you'll rethink what you said, then decide that it's not okay that you love me if I don't love you too, then I'll come back and you'll be gone, or I won't hear it again. All because I was selfish and made it all about me and , or I just....."

"Cups, Cups, Cups. breathe cups."
"Don't say that, Chatty!"
"Why Cups, What's wrong with yuckin' breathing?"
"The last time I woke up with you telling me to breath Chatty I was waking up from that dream, and you were, you were, you were...." Ray Mond starts to hyperventalate. Thinking about the horrible dream and waking up and the house alone, with Chatty not to return, has triggered those anxious thoughts from before.
"I can't do this without you Chatty, I can't walk around the city where we've been together, I don't want to picture life without, without your text and calls, and our crazy together. I can't, I can't,I can't....I just I...."
"Look at me Cups!" Chatterbox looks into Ray Monds terrified eyes. Grabbing both sides of Rays face! "Cups, I'm right here, Cups! What is happening in that yuckin' mind of yours, my love?!"

Ray Mond is fear stricken she feels Chatty holding her, She knows he's there. She just can't stop the panic! "You, You, Chatty YOU DIED! You were dead, and I couldn't take it, I can't take it!"

"Ray! RAY! I'm right here! I've already told you cups, I don't yuckin' die!"
"Hold me tighter! Please?!" Rays vulnerability is almost frightening to Chatterbox,
"I can't let you leave like this Ray! I can't!"
"Just hold me!"
Chatterbox, pulls ray up onto his lap again, putting her head in the crook of his chin and his chest, holding her body close with one arm and pressing her face to his chest with his other hand.
Ray Monds breathing begings to match Chatty's. "There you go, Cups, there you go, I'm here my love, I'm here."

"Chatty, will you please stay with me until I fall asleep tonight? I don't want to be alone. I don't know why I'm so scared, My heart would break into pieces without you, Chatty?!"
"I'd do anything for you, Cups! Anything you yucking need you just tell me, okay?"

"Right now, Chatty, I just need you!"
Chatterbox kisses the top of her head and rocks back and forth, just like he would if she were a baby.
Chatterbox wondered if she remembered being rocked by her parents before they decided to abandon her. "Oh yuck, he thought, "That's why she so yucked up." It had never hit him quite like that before, even though she's said to him multiple times. "Everyone always leaves me." It's literally been everyone. Even her parents were fucked in the head.

"Ray?!"
"Yes Chatty?"

"Please remember, I love you!"
"I'll remember chatty, I promise I could never forget! I just hope you remember!"
Chatterbox wanted to make a joke, but now is not the time. He holds and rocks her until her breathing slows he's most certain she's fallen asleep. "Hey sleepy head, you wanna go home?"
"No Chatty, I want to lay on your chest forever, please? I'm safe here!"