No Mask Required

What are you waiting for?

Looking knowingly into her eyes, he feels the pain of insecurity of her question just like he felt the day she didn't recognize him. He wants to spend every waking moment with her and hold her while she sleeps in his arms every night, but at this moment...even though he sees her as the only option as his future, he is fully aware this is not a guarantee.

His heart is racing, reaching his hand up toward her face, stroking her cheek with his thumb. "Cups? You said that when you look into my eyes, your world slows down. You said you see your future in my eyes, and I told you that I want you in my future, remember?"

"I didn't say that Chatterbox, she did."

Chatterbox's face changes as he hears the cold hearted voice from the hospital and his blood runs cold.

"Ray?"

His hand shakes against her face as he searches her eyes while longing for his Cups to save him from his anxieties of Ray's untrusted voice returning. With no response his own words escape the shackles of his clenched throat, "Ray?"

"Nope she's gone now..."

The tension in his Shoulders loosen for a moment. Wrapped up in the confusion of the ever changing personalities of the one, that no matter what, he still wanted to promise forever to. As quickly as her tone changes in her voice his time with her and without her over the last few months, or in Ray's mind, years. Flashed in his mind.

"Are you sure you're okay?"
"Chatty, I'm honestly not sure of anything right fucking now. Except that my head hurts, and I want to lay down. Is that okay?"

"That's fine Ray, but I really think we need to get you to the yuckin' hospital."

"No Chatty, I don't want to go to the hospital. The last time I went to the hospital I forgot you. I can't let that happen again."

Grabbing his hand she pulls him inside. "Cups, what the yuck are you doing? You're not okay Cups, and I'm worried about you!"

"Well you shouldn't be Chatty, We're going to be just fine. I promise, please just let me handle her and come inside with me."

"Cups, I'm coming, but I don't think we need to be going anywhere but the hospital."

"I wish you would just shut the fuck up you stupid clown."

He pauses standing in front of the two doors "His Cups" had Hastily pulled him into. "Excuse yuckin' you?"

"You fucking heard me, I don't know why you act so surprised, when ever you hear you're dumb, after all you are a yuck bag clown."

Walking slowly and strategically he passes by the woman that he doesn't recognize. He sits on the bed placing his head in his hands. Quickly laying back on the bed, a blood curdling scream leaves his lungs, as though it had been waiting years to be released.

"Chatty?! What's wrong?"

"Cups?"

"Yes."

Chatterbox sits straight up on the bed and grabbing her hand he pulls her down beside him.

"Cups you're not okay,and I am worried. I don't want to lose you Cups, Not again. Do you yuckin' understand me?"

"I know Chatty, Just please trust me."

"I'm yuckin' trying to Cups, I wish you knew actually how hard I"m trying, but it's super hard for me to trust when you keep going back and forth and Idk what's going to happen from yuckin' minute to minute with you, and I'm being completely yuckin' honest Cups...I'm scared."

"Scared of what Chatty?"

She watches as a tear falls down his cheek. He quickly wipes it away before it has a chance to plummet to the floor like his heart takes a plummeting trip to his stomach each time her voice is harsh like daggers being stabbed into it.
"Yeah Cups, Scared. Scared you're going to walk away, and leave me here just like everyone else has. I'm yuckin' scared of that. I wish I could be strong like you need right now and I promise you I"m yuckin' trying. I just don't know how well I can hold up, but I will do my best for you Cups. I promise."

"You don't have to be strong for me Chatty, and I'm so sorry I made you feel like I needed you to be some kind of pillar to hold me up. I'm strong! I can make it without you if I need to."

"Yeah, I yuckin' know that's the scary part.. I know you can make it without yuckin' me and what if you decide that's something that you just would rather do instead of having to deal with her or you or whoever not liking me. I don't want to be without you."

Laying back onto the bed instead of a scream he lets out a giant sigh. Placing his elbow over his eyes to block the light from the ceiling fan. When he feels a hand on his chest. He moves his elbow slightly to see "His Cups" sliding down onto the bed beside him. Picking up his wrist with her hand. And placing it around her shoulders and onto her side. She snuggles into his embrace.

"It's okay Chatty, I love you, remember?"

"Yes cups I remember but sometimes when you love someone you will leave them if you think that is what's best for them."

She lifts her head off of his chest. Wait Chatty is that what you're going to do to me? Are you going to leave me because you think I'm tired of you? Or that I'm not good for you? If that is your plan, Chatterbox, that isn't fair and I demand you give me a chance to show you how much I love you and want to be with you before you make this whole yuckin' decision without even talking to me first. I can't believe that you would even say something like that! Why are you smiling at me?"

"Well Cups, I'm smiling at you because you're thinking that is my plan and I'm thinking it's yours so we're both in the boat together and we don't even yuckin' know it."

"Huh? Who said anything about a yuckin' boat?"

"No one did Cups, just lay your yuckin' head back down here and let me enjoy your yuckin' company! Will ya?"

"Sure Chatty, I'm also sorry. I don't want her to hurt you, and I want to be with you. I hope you know that!"

"I know Cups."

"You better Chatty!"

"I promise I do, and I want to be with you....Forever..."

"Well what are you waiting for huh?"