BL ONESHOTS NO.4

²⁰⁷⁰😔🥰San x Ray

All in Ray's POV

< Ray says all to the • >

"I'm going to say these words to you. And you're going to let me say them, they may end up being some type of poem, but please that's just how I need it shown. So you're going to sit there? Quiet and silent. So I can speak these words out loud to you every waking hour. Now let's t me begin by saying,"

"Lost in the darkness, can't find my way
Trapped in this emptiness day after day
A weight on my chest, it's hard to breathe
My mind is a prison, I just want to leave"

"Dying from depression, can't fight no more
Every day's a battle, but I'm losing this war
My soul is weary, my heart is tired
I'm drowning in sorrow, can't be inspired"

"No one understands, they just don't see
The pain and the struggle that's inside of me
I wear a smile, but it's just for show
I'm dying inside, but who would know"

"Dying from depression, can't fight no more
Every day's a battle, but I'm losing this war
My soul is weary, my heart is tired
I'm drowning in sorrow, can't be inspired"

"I'm falling deeper, can't find my way out
Dark thoughts consume me, I'm filled with doubt
The light is fading, I'm losing the fight
Dying from depression, can't see the light"

"Dying from depression, can't fight no more
Every day's a battle, but I'm losing this war
My soul is weary, my heart is tired
I'm drowning in sorrow, can't be inspired"

"Dying from depression, it's the end for me
No more pain, no more sorrow, I'll finally be free
But my heart aches for those I'll leave behind
I'm dying from depression, but my memories will shine. And though I may be gone,

 my spirit will live on

In the hearts of those who loved me, even when I'm gone
Dying from depression, but I'll find peace at last
No more demons haunting me, my pain will be in the past."

•

After I finished reciting the words, San just sat there, tears streaming down his face. He reached out to hold my hand, and I could feel the love and pain in his touch.

"Ray, I had no idea you were feeling this way. Why didn't you tell me?" San whispered.

I took a deep breath and looked into his eyes, "I didn't want to burden you with my struggles. But now that you know, will you still stand by my side?"

San nodded, squeezing my hand tighter, "Of course, Ray. I love you, and we'll get through this together. We'll find help and face this battle head-on."

And in that moment, I felt a wave of relief wash over me. Knowing that San was there for me, ready to support me through thick and thin, gave me hope for a brighter future.

"I love you too, San. Thank you for listening and for understanding," I said, tears of gratitude streaming down my face.

Together, we stood up, ready to face whatever challenges lay ahead. With San by my side, I knew that even in the darkest of times, there was light and love to guide us through. And for that, I was eternally grateful.

Over the next few weeks, San and I started seeking help to address my struggles with depression. We spoke to a therapist who helped me understand my emotions and provided coping mechanisms to deal with the darkness that often consumed me.

Through it all, San was my rock. He never once wavered in his support and love for me, always by my side through the tough days and the brighter moments. His presence alone was comforting, reminding me that I wasn't alone in my battle against depression.

As time passed, I started to see glimmers of light shining through the cracks of my darkness. With each therapy session and heartfelt conversation with San, I began to feel a sense of hope blossoming within me.

One day, as we sat in our living room, sipping tea and enjoying each other's company, I turned to San and said, "Thank you for never giving up on me, even when I felt like giving up on myself. You are my light in the darkness, my strength when I feel weak."

San smiled softly, his eyes filled with love and pride, "Ray, you are the bravest person I know. You are worth every ounce of effort and love that I give you. We'll continue to face life's challenges together, always."

And in that moment, surrounded by love and support, I knew that no matter what obstacles lay ahead, as long as I had San by my side, I could face anything. Depression may have been a part of my journey, but with San's unwavering love, it would never define me. And for that, I was forever grateful.

[No.144. Bye now.]