TW: blades, talk about self-harm
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Third Person POV:
Chris and Nick took Matt's blades away last night, all Matt has been doing since is sleeping, crying or begging to get his blades back.
Matt is sobbing his eyes out, engulfed in both of his brother's arms, sitting on kitchen floor. He's been begging them for hours on and off.
"Matt... you know we can't give them to you" Nick says while rubbing Matt's back.
"Just please I- can't do this" Matt says while sobbing loudly, his sobs are making Nick and Chris guts wrench. Loud, painful cries in desperation, Nick and Chris's hearts ache for their brother.
Matt's POV:
I need my blades, I can't do this. Nick and Chris won't give them back to me, I'm going insane just please.
"GIVE ME THE GOD DAMN BLADES" I yell out, tears streaming down my face, my face is all red,
my eyes puffy with dark eye bags. Nick and Chris are both hugging me as I'm sobbing on the floor.
I don't know if I'll make it without the blades, i've barely made it even with them.
"Matt, let's get you to bed okay.." Chris says as he begins to lift me up from the ground, I don't bother fighting, I'm far too exhausted. Nick and Chris walk me to my bed. I get in my bed, Nick and Chris beside me. Chris puts his arm around me and I sink into Nick.
Eventually, I fall asleep.
I wake up, I look around to see that Nick and Chris are no longer in my bed. I can hear them in the kitchen talking about something, my heart drops when I hear them say "matt". What could they be saying about me? Before I leave my room, I check my phone to see that the time is 3:27pm.
With all the energy I have in me, I make my way to the living room, passing the kitchen and immediately laying down on the sofa. Grabbing a blanket for comfort. My brothers follow after me and sit on either sides of me, cuddling into me.
"I love you Matt" Chris says softly.
"Matt I love you so much" Nick says shortly after Chris.
My heart warms up as I say "I love you guys too" After God knows how long, a faint genuine smile appears on my face.
"Matt can you tell us how this all started...?" Chris asks, shortly after Nick adds on "Please?" My smile drops.
Instantly anxiety fills my stomach and I feel like throwing up. I knew this would happen, that I would have to tell them sooner or later. Tears begin to swell in my eyes, I begin to speak though my voice is shakey.
"uh...m maybe the past six to seven months.." I manage to let out- turning around to see the disappointment in my brother's faces.
"Well- no that was when I started, you know" I said while motioning to my wrists, tears now threatening to fall.
"I had been feeling like and shit all for maybe a month before I first did it..." I let out a sigh, I stop holding back my tears and let them flow.
"I tried it as a coping mechanism, the pain in the body quiets the pain in the head, it made it so I would be distracted from what was going on in my head"
My brothers look at me, tears forming in their eyes.
"When I first did it, it started as pinching myself to focus myself, small things like that. I told myself I wasn't going to get addicted...it's just the pain gives such a euphoric feeling" Sobs are escaping my mouth, I shouldn't be telling them all this.
"Im sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry" I say as I curl up to knees and start sobbing.
"Hey Matt it's okay we love you" I hear Chris say as Nick rubs my back.
Third Person POV:
Matt ends up falling asleep on the sofa in Nick and Chris's hold.
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I'll try to update tomorrow !!!(no promises☹️)
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sorry this chapter kinda short
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Matt Sturniolo ☹️❤️
FanfictionMatthew Sturniolo is going through a very hard time and his brothers Nicolas and Christopher are there to help him. This story will contain some sensitive topics so please don't read if you are uncomfortable. I will put ⚠️TW'S⚠️ when needed during...
