• BURN ME •

• 48

I Dont Wanna Live Forever
~ Corvyx, JAX

Flame

My body feels numb, so fucking numb. I can't move, not even my fingertips, what the hell? My eyes move restlessly under my close eyelids. Fuck, I can't even open my damn eyes. As the fog in my head slowly clears, I hear a beeping. A beeping that burns itself into my head. "You have to eat something, my boy." Who is that? "I can't, I'm not hungry." Snow? So I'm not dead? I want to make myself known, to show that I'm alive, but I can't. "Okay, but I'll leave you the food here. You should sleep, it's already late." Then it goes quiet again, except for the beeping. I feel someone holding my hand, I know those soft hands. It must be my Little Fire, "hey Flame. I know you can hear me, at least that's what the doctors say. I just want you to keep fighting, we're all waiting for you." He talks to me as if I could answer him. Fuck, I want to make myself known. Tell him that I'm here, that I can hear him. "We miss you... I miss you. Even if you're an asshole, you're my asshole. God, I swear, as soon as you're okay, I'm going to kill you, you hear me?" His voice is shaking, just like his hand. "So you have to wake up. You said you'd take care of me. That I have a home here, but that's not true. Not if you're not here, I think that I...if you weren't here anymore. If you really had died that night...then I would be dead too," he whispers. "The doctors said it would be good to talk to you. I...I asked Sophia to bring me a book. So I'm able to read to you, I hope I do it half as well as you." He says and the next moment he lets go of my hand, probably to grab the book. He clears his throat quietly, before he starts reading to me from Romeo and Juliet. I have to smile inside, I know every single word in this book.

It's torture, I can hear everyone. But I can't move or speak. Every damn night Snow reads to me, just like right now. I fight with every fiber of my body so that I can move. So that I can open my eyes, his words fall silent. And I know that he must have fallen asleep again. Fuck, move already, come on. As my finger twitches, a feeling of victory shoots through me. Yes, a little more. I tug at the heavy chains that bind my body to the bed. Until I open my eyes, blinking, my gaze darts through the half-dark room. Until it falls on Snow. His white hair falls into his face. And his head rests on my thigh, he looks tired. The book, is lying on the hospital bed. I smile slightly as I look at him, carefully. Careful not to wake him. I reach out my hand to him, stroke his hair. It is so soft, so damn soft. He turns his head and I can see his face. His nose is decorated with a bandage and there are a few scratches on his cheek. But otherwise he looks unharmed, I breathe a sigh of relief. He hums softly and leans into my touch before his eyes flutter open. His eyes widen in disbelief as he looks at my face, "Fuego Pequeño," I croak softly, fuck my voice sounds so hoarse. His mouth falls open, "oh my god, you're awake." I just nod slightly, "you fucking asshole. I thought you were dying, I really thought I'd never see you again." A laugh creeps up my sore throat, "Baby... I haven't even been awake for ten minutes. And you're already insulting me." Comes from me. He shakes his head, "Don't call me that, you asshole. What you did, god...I could kill you right now." Comes from him, I grin. "Please don't, someone has already tried that and failed. Can you wait with the murder, till I feel better?" Comes from me, Snow just shakes his head, and hisses a quiet "asshole."

"You're impossible, what was that with Sky, huh? Did you have fun? Did you fucking have fun playing with me, you..." I interrupt him. "I was jealous, okay? I saw you with Snake, I... couldn't bear the thought. That he would touch you because... I... Fuck, it was a damn stupid idea, with Sky." comes over my lips. Snow looks at me, his eyes widen. "Say something..." I croak as the silence becomes too much for me. My heart rate increases the longer he stays silent. He looks at me seriously before he laughs, his head falls back onto my thigh. "What's so funny?" I ask him, he raises his head and smiles at me slightly. "I chose the songs for the evening, together with Snake, you idiot," he says, I have to grin. "Why didn't you just said something?" He asks, I swallow. "I was angry and jealous, Baby," I say, Snow grabs my hand. He intertwines our fingers, "Next time, say something. I thought that..." his words get stuck in his throat. " What?" I ask, he swallows. "That I'm not enough for you..." he breathes quietly. I shake my head, "Baby, you are more than enough. I would never..." I stop myself. "I... I love you, damn it. I love you, I meant it. I would die for you, as long as you are safe." I say quietly, Snow's eyes get even bigger. "You...you love me?" He asks, I answer with a nod. A smile spreads across his face, so wide and warm, that it warms me from the inside to the outside.