• BURN ME •

• 20

The Party & The After Party

~ The Weeknd

Flame

The sun is slowly setting on the horizon and casting an orange-red veil over the city's buildings. The air is mild, as it always is here. Even at Christmas it is not particularly cold, the smell of the sea is in the air. A grin is on my lips as I slowly change route and ride towards the club. When I turn into the parking lot, it is already quite full. Without saying a word, I park my bike and get off, our bouncer nods silently at me. Which I respond to also with a nod, before I go in. The music is not too loud yet, as the stuff is still setting up for the night. I stand quietly in the middle of the club and look around, I recognize Nacho in the upper area. He is helping to move a few tables, to make more room. I slowly move up the stairs. There is still no sign of Snow or the others, no wonder, it is still early. Nacho turns around and grins broadly when he sees me, "Hermano, thanks for being here already." I nod with a grin, I've been thinking about Snows words for the last week. I've really thought a lot, and I'm more than sure that I've kept silence for long enough. It's time to talk to my best friend again, no, he's more than a best friend, he's my brother from another mother. I pull him into a brotherly hug, "Happy birthday..." I whisper in his ear. My voice is rough and scratchy, Nacho grabs my arms and pushes me away, confused. His eyes are wide open, and he looks at me in shock, "did you just? Talked to me?" He asks in disbelief, I laugh quietly and nod.

Nacho shakes his head slightly and opens his mouth, but no words come out. "Have I left you speechless? Is my voice that bad, Hermano?" I ask quietly, Nacho laughs quietly and pulls me into his arms. So tight, that i think he never wants to let me go again. "Fuck...it's good to hear your voice, you asshole, I thought I'd never hear it again." He says, "I don't want to know why you're suddenly talking to me, but shit. This is the best birthday present you could have given me, fuck." I keep laughing and then release the hug, "I'm sorry, I should have talked to you earlier. But I...I just couldn't bring my self to it," I try to explain. Nacho waves me off, "screw it brother, all that matters is that you do it now." He explains to me, I nod slightly. "I still have a present for you, unless you don't want it." I grin. Nacho laughs, "yes, but you know you're not supposed to give me anything." He explains to me and lets me pull him to my office. Nacho looks at me with a grin as he puts his present aside, a couple of old rock records. Because I know he collects them and is happy about them.

And his broad grin confirms it to me, "Thanks, they're damn rare to find." He explains to me, running his hand through his hair. And yes, he's right, I've been looking for the records for a long time. Nacho leans forward and looks at me, "So, do you want to tell me something?" Nacho asks as if he already knows the answer, I nod slightly. "You've seen the pictures, right?" I ask him, Nacho nods and crosses his arms. "Then the cat's already out of the bag, isn't it?" I ask, for me, the cat been out of the bag since Nacho walked in on me gettin' sucked off by Blum. But I guess for him, it's not like that, Nacho frowns. "What do you mean exactly? Are you gay, bi, or something else? Don't let me hangin', so what's going on?" He asks bluntly, he looks as if he wants to annoy me. I sigh, "I'm gay," I say quietly, it's so unreal to tell him. To finally confirm it to him after all these years. Nacho nods as if he were satisfied, "I thought so." I raise my eyebrows questioningly, then why he never said something, he laughs. "Well, in all the years we've known each other, you've never shown any interest in women, Hermano. And the final straw was when i saw you with Blum, but I never wanted to talk to you about it, but I'm really glad that you're finally opening up to me." He smiles, and I grin slightly, "I thought it was about time, besides, you're my best friend, my brother," I explain. And I'm dead ass serious about my words, he's family to me. I would catch a bullet for him at any time.