In the Moshpit - Joost Klein

26.

I waited there impatiently for the elevator to come back down. I couldn't quite figure out why he cried, I didn't do anything. What Emil did may have looked a bit suspicious but there was nothing to it. I knew that and Emil knew that, but did Joost know that?

After what seemed like years the elevator finally came down but as expected with no Joost in it. I knew what floor he was staying on, but I didn't know the room. When I reached the 4th floor, I wished to at least see a little blond head but there was no one in sight.

I considered knocking on every door from how desperate I was to talk to Joost. I hated the thought of me hurting him in any way or generally just seeing him sad. I knew there were multiple other artists staying here too so I decided against knocking on every door to save myself some embarrassment.

I was trying to do the maths of where he might be staying but I used to only get 02 in maths so that wasn't too much help. I secretly just wished to get some kind of hint, but I was no James Bond so of course I noticed absolutely nothing.

A light was sent from above and down the corridor came Joost 2.0. I quickly raced towards him. Teun was only wearing a white rope and hotel slippers so when he saw me, he covered himself up a bit more.

"What are you doing here Callista?" Teun asked.

"I came here to see Joost but found him crying in the lobby. When I tried to speak to him, he just ran away and now I'm trying to locate his room" I explained.

"It's right there" Teun pointed to the door we were standing right in front of. Of course it was that one.

"Ohh....thanks" I said.

Teun went into what I assumed was his room next to Joost's. I did three knocks. And then I did three more. And then three more. There was no answer from him.

"Joost, please just let me in. I just want to talk and make sure you're alright" I said into the crack of the door. I looked like an idiot, so I was lucky I was the only one out in the hall.

I knocked and begged for 10 minutes without any answer. The only door that opened was Teun who started feeling bad for me. He had changed into some real clothes when he opened the door.

I then suddenly remembered a thing Joost would always do every time he was sad. He would always spend his days out on the balcony at any chance he ever got. Joost claimed that it made him think more clearly.

"Can I use your baloney?" I asked Teun before entering his room.

"Of course" Teun didn't even hesitate. He immediately made me feel welcome.

To no one's surprise when I entered Teun's balcony I found Joost smoking on his own balcony. There was a little gap between the two balconies, but you could easily have a conversation.

"Joost" I said to get his attention.

I saw his cheeks were stained with tears while his eyes were red. He really had a meltdown over this even though I didn't even know what this was.

"Please just leave me alone" he said with a muffled voice that was almost inaudible. All he focused on was the view over the city and the cigarette in his hand.

"What's wrong?" I asked with a comforting voice.

"Doesn't matter, just leave me alone" He scoffed.

"Why are you acting like this, Joost? I got closer to his balcony. I tried reaching my hand out for his, but he moved further away from me

"Why am I acting like this?! Why are you acting like that?" He still didn't look at me, but I could tell from his reaction that it was clearly something I had done to upset him.