PRECIOUS TIME

CHAPTER 37

He seemed to say it casually, but both of them knew how much sincerity and helplessness were involved.

"I'm sorry." Alan whispered, "I have been thinking recently, maybe I shouldn't show up at the time and you won't have so many troubles. You can also live happily with Lil Rak without troubles. "

Jeff said lightly, "Don't assume what has happened."

"Jeff, do you really care about those things before? Blame me for treating you like that?"

Jeff's movement stagnated. He glanced at Alan, then turned his face from him, he couldn't see his expression clearly.

"I can understand why you did that at the time but those days really made me very sad, very wronged. I feel like I am a very useless person. The only way to let myself relax is not to think about it. I have deliberately disappeared. Forget it, what blame are you talking about?"

Alan felt sour in his heart, " Jeff, I know that the past are irreversible. I said that I will make up for it. Maybe at that time you thought I was just talking about it for Lil Rak but in fact it was not. No, I have been thinking like this for a long time. I didn't lie to you. I really like you too, not because of Lil Rak or for anything else, but because I like you very much."

"I know you didn't lie to me, including you saying that you like me." Jeff said in a low voice, "I was so shocked that night, so I didn't answer you properly. I have been thinking about why you say that suddenly, but no matter what I do. I don't think I can understand it and no matter what I think, there is only one answer that is I can't accept your confession."

Alan's originally joyful mood for Jeff's arrival cooled down a little bit.

Jeff was still as gentle as water, but he didn't leave any room to refute for what he said.

"Alan, I did have you in my heart before but at that time I was told over and over again that I didn't deserve to like you, so I didn't like you anymore. Now I really don't have that thought."
Jeff smiled, "You shouldn't say this when you are sick. The porridge should be done. You remember to eat it. I will leave first."

He turned to leave the kitchen but Alan gently took his hand. Sincerely said, "Jeff, I am not stupid enough to think that you will accept me immediately. I just hope that you will not directly condemn me to death. Please give me a chance so that I can approach you again."

Jeff withdrew himself when he saw Alan getting nearer. Someone who had always been arrogant, begging with his eyes so Jeff suddenly couldn't bear it.

He didn't answer directly, and left the sentence "You have a good rest.", then left quickly.

Not long after Jeff left, the porridge boiled and made a gurgling sound. Alan filled a bowl and sat down at the table alone.

He hadn't eaten rice since the morning, and he was going to order a takeaway casually.

He didn't expect Jeff to come, and he didn't expect him to cook porridge for him.

It should be a happy thing, after all, he hadn't dared to think that he would be treated like this before.

Alan crazily wants to see Jeff when he can't see him. He wants to see him for a longer time, and he want Jeff to stay by his side for a longer time.

After having someone he likes, Alan became greedy.

Alan slowly drank the porridge. The sweet porridge moisturized his throat that had been sore for a day.

Although Jeff was resolute in what he said just now, Alan didn't want to give up.