Sorry but i can't... Kim Seungmin FF

chapter 14-The habit is going to come with irregularities

Shin-Sus Pov

This morning, I woke up finding myself alone in the bed, Seungmin left me, and I was found alone again. So I decided to go downstairs since there were like 3 floors, it kinda looks like
this

Arriving downstairs, I head towards the kitchen and see Seungmin taking his breakfast. He is taking something very american-like bacon, already in the morning.

I look at him, and he looks back at me, a little smile, and he waves at me to come

Me: Good morning
Seungmin: Good morning
Me: You left this morning
Seungmin: I did because I was hungry and I didn't want to wake you up, your sleep wasn't so calm, you needed rest after yesterday's nightmare
Me: Oh... yeah... that...
Seungmin: You see? Now you need energy, you gotta eat something
Me: I could eat a bear.

He gives me a low chuckle and a little smile creeping onto his lips. How is this man so adorable? Like seriously...

I sit down on the stool, and He hands me a plate with bread and jam. Looks like strawberry flavored, I could just jump on it, but I want to throw up.

I start gagging and run towards the toilets, I throw up until my stomach starts to hurt. I flush the toilet, and I sit fown on the floor, exhausted.

Foot steps are heard towards where I am, and Seungmin shows up. Talking in a low reassuring and worrying voice

Seungmin: Hey, are you okay?
Me: I am.
Seungmin: No, you are not.
Me: it's not like it had a reason. Maybe I just catch a cold.
Seungmin: If it is what i think it is then you are fucked up. You thought of the possibility of being pregnant?
Me: Me?! Pregnant?!
Seungmin: You got R word.
Me: I know but... it's not possible right?
Seungmin: You can make sure of it and do a pregnancy test. I can buy it for you if you want.
Me: Are you sure? Like 100% sure?
Seungmin: I am, I will.
Me: Thank you very much.

He smiles at me and walk out of the mansion, taking his car keys.

I am found all alone and i Don't know what to do but i have to deal with it, it's a very new place here so i thought about maybe having a house tour.

I get up from the floor and I start to look at the hallway, its so pretty, they are so rich, i mostly find hallways, there is pretty much bedrooms with name written on it as: Seo Changbin, BangChan, Lee Minho, Hwang Hyunjin, Han Jisung, Yang Jeongin, Lee Yongbok.

I Wonder who they are

I then find a room, a room with a lot of guns, they are Indeed mafia members.

There is Nothing much, i guess that there is hidden rooms or places that are forbidden. The Walls are very cool, when i finallyb see Something that would be pretty interesting such as A work desk.

There is Seungmin's name written on the door, I decide to open it, there is pictures on his desk, a painting on the wall and some personall stuff. I open a drawer and see a gun, I close it instantly.

There is a picture that caught my eye, a picture of Wonwoo and Seungmin both having a wide smile on the face and he is wearing a coat that looks exactly like the one i got from this stranger years ago. No, Impossible right?

Is it fate? or Something like destiny? No no no no no no, him? My fate? He is Dangerous but he is so HOT. Is it like my only argument? YES. Am I going to Believe that he isn't the one for me? YES or should i not?

UUGHHHRRRRR, I'm going nuts, a gunshot is heard and I decide to hide under the desk, I take the gun even though I Don't have any idea of how to use it but then nothing.

A door sound gets heard and then gun shots again, I start to wonder what the hell is happening.

Foot steps gets heard close to me and then gunshots again.

??: Shin-Su! Are you okay?!

Me: WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING?!

Seungmin: People tried to kill you or me or both of us, youll have to get used to it.

Me: But Im scared! Im so scared

Seungmin: Im here, I wont let you die. I promise

He make a pinky finger and I complete it

Seungmin: You wont get hurt anymore

Me: But what about you?

Seungmin: Its not like I was gonna die and you know, even if it happened, youre going to heal, finally, Im just a mafia member its a big JUST but here, Im no one but you you are someone who desrves to live who you want to be. Dont be like me I lost everyone but you, youre going to live happily.

Me: Everyone left me, youre the only one who didnt, even though you can be so annoying and such an asshole, you dont deserve death. I dont want you to leave like the others.

Seungmin: Whats so special about me?

Me: Everything

Seungmin: No it definitely isnt, Im not tha-

I kiss him, for a few seconds, I tried to talk back but he catches me off with a kiss, we kiss each other, for long enough to this feeling special.

Not like the other ones but more intimate

It wasnt any kiss, it was THE kiss, it felt different, I was scared, I think he was too, he was shaking a bit and it was cute.

He cups my cheek and I feel safe, I dont have any idea of whats happening but right now, I dont wanna know anymore. In this moment, its just me and him and nothing else matters

I am catching back on writing YIIPIIEEE, i'm so happy! Inspiration came back yesterday after so many time. See you guys soon!

Peace!