Secrets | Felix × Stray Kids

- 8 ⛔️-

Early update! The next chapter is still on the 24th!

This is mostly seunglix, so get ready, cus it's a lot. ^^

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Did Felix have a test in Biology? No.
Did Felix lie to his friends? Yes.
Does Felix know why he lied? No.
Does Felix now feel sick that he just lied to his closest friends? Well, yes.

Felix rushed to the bathroom, feeling his lunch coming back, making him turn pale and weak.

After throwing up everything he ate, he washed his face and rinsed his mouth. He stared at himself in the bathroom mirror, watching as tears threatened him to fall down his stained face.

Stop it. Stop, get ahold of yourself. Smile and you'll be fine. Don't you dare cry.

He choked in his own tears, bursting.
He felt disgusted with himself.

I don't deserve to cry, I don't deserve to treat my friends badly.
I don't deserve that.
But, you know what I deserve? I should have been the one in the house, the one that stayed and burned there, not them.

I should have been there, I should have been there, I should have been th-.

"Hyung?"
Felix turned his face to the voice, not even bothering to wipe his tears away and instead, he smiled.

Felix's legs betrayed him, a lump formed in his throat again.
He began to cry in front of someone, the lump intensified.
He smiled through his pain, the lump intensified again.

He thought that if he just ignored the pain and smiled thorugh it, he will feel better, he will forget about the pain he feels everytime he remembers that.
And that's when the lump decided to make it's way out.

Felix rushed from the floor to a bathroom stall, closing the door behind him as fast as he could, throwing up for the second time today.

"Hyung, open the door!" Seungmin shouted from the other side of the door.
" M-minnie, I'm f-fine. I-I'm ok." Felix smiled, trying to convince himself that he was in fact ok.

"No you're not hyung. You're just bottling all of this pain inside you, laughing and smiling through it, thinking it will solve everything. But let me tell you that everything will just get worser and worser than it already is if you don't talk to anyone.
The world always says that it'll be difficult and harsh to keep going strong, they want us to get discouraged and there are moments where we are, but the moment you feel like it's too much, you just decide to smile through the pain and not talk about it. So please, tell us what you're feeling hyung, we hate seeing you pretend everything is fine when it's clearly not."

Wow.

Felix thought about opening the door and allowing the alpha see him, which was very big for him because this state is the one that he so much hates.

He hated seeing it himself, so someone else seeing it as well was kind of weird for Felix.

He stood up from the floor and hesitantly opened the door, revealing himself to Seungmin in a state no one else has seen before, and thise that had, are no longer walking on this planet.

Seungmin stared at him for what felt like an eternity, in reality being only a couple of seconds, making Felix let out an unintentional whimper escape.

Seungmin then launched forward, embracing Felix into a comforting hug, giving him some pats on the head and realeasing some relaxing pheromones.

Felix was shocked at first but embraced him back, allowing himself to cry in the alpha's arms that's giving him a sense of comfort he hasn't felt since he was a little child.

Felix cried and cried until he ran out of tears, and surprisingly, he actually felt a bit better.

The two stayed in that position for a bit more time, Seungmin assuring that Felix was actually not crying anymore.

Felix inhaled Seungmin's musky scent, feeling safe in the alpha's arms, only to be taken out of his trance by the bell.

Felix backed away from Seungmin, but Seungmin didn't let go. He moved a bit, holding a hand on Felix's shoulder and using the other to wipe some of his hyung's fallen tears.

"Here, you go wash your face while I grab your backpack." Seungmin finally backed away to go get the backpack, and Felix just nodded.
"Do you want to go to class or to the nurse?"

"I don't know..." Felix answered honestly.
"Ok, you're going to the nurse for the rest of the day today. Me and the guys are gonna give you the notes from today." Seungmin said as he grabbed a paper towel and gave it to Felix for his face.
And Felix again, nodded.

They left the bathroom hand in hand, Seungmin leading Felix to the nurse.

As Seungmin dropped Felix off and gave him his backpack, he closed the door behind him and after making sure he's in the clear he pulled out his phone.

TRAUMATIZING KIDS❤️🍆🍑
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Seungmin: Emergency meeting on the rooftop in 10.