Not planned...at all

Chapter 17

"Shit I'm stupid! Stupid, stupid, stupid..."

Frustrated that I'd taken so long to figure it out I bring the heel of my hand to my forehead repeatedly until Roxy stopped me confused.

"Yes I know, we know, but why is it this time?"

I pout, it all made sense and I'd ruined it, stupid as always.

"He was flirting, Roxanne! Fred, last year when I told him 'make me' when he told me to shut up, he leaned in to kiss me and i punched his gut."

For further info Fred was an club mate of Roxanne from judo, we'd met when I tried judo for a while and it's safe to say I used to be head over heels for the guy. Red head, protective and funny a bit much of a geek and freak... exactly my type

"That's why he'd say good girl when we were training! He was making innuendos and I would just smile and hug him...why?! I liked him, I should've done something"

Roxy blinked for a moment before bursting out laughing.

"That was a year ago, how the fuck do you notice it just now?!"

"I don't know, I liked the guy, you know I go stupid when I like the guy..."

"Yeah but my god, was he really that forward and you just what? Said 'aw thanks you're a nice guy too' each time he called you a good girl!"

Roxanne was almost crying at this point, which was apparently all she needed for her wings to poof away.

"Yeah? Maybe? I'm sorry... I'm pitiful"

"You most definitely are, also why was I never informed of all those things?"

I shrugged keeping my eyes down, my face burning up with embarrassment. All the others were looking, I really shouldn't have just blurted that out.

"Yup she's like that all the time, I'm telling you there's no boredom around that girl! Really...now you've got the actual tea!"

Thinking Roxanne was speaking to someone of the inner circle I wanted to melt and disappear from embarrassment, which didn't actually work but it did poof away my own wing...God knows if I'll ever get them back or even how!

But looking up I saw Roxy wasn't speaking to any of the fae in the room but to small little tendrils and ghost-like shadow, chatting like they were her new best friends.

"I've been replaced by shadows...now that's depressing"

I probably didn't seem quite affected though, I mostly thought it was cool that Roxy could speak with them we'd get real good tea thanks to that and top tier info!

Turning to face Azriel the only other person that can speak to shadows and decide to take my revenge for the hair pulling.

"Maybe that's why you ain't got no friends other than these two!"

Noticing I'd turned my back to the beautiful creature I had obsessed over, when he was only words on paper, I turned again to face Cassian.

Only now that no one's fighting or freaking out, including myself, I can finally take a good look.