I'm Not Of This World

Chapter 20: I thought he cared

MIKAYLA DAVIS

I run through the hallway, running away from what had just happened.

I stop as I can no longer continue running. With my hands on my knees, I'm panting so much now I feel breathless as tears roll down my cheeks endlessly.

I thought what I shared with Jayden was special. I thought he valued me like I valued him.

So all this was a game? My time wasted?

I should've listened to Arnold.

He was right. He was right about Jayden, and I can't believe I was mad at my brother for a boy who doesn't see me like I see him.

As these thoughts envade my mind, I find it hard to breathe. Taking out air from my lungs starts getting difficult. I feel my head spinning, I think I'm dizzy.

All I can't stop thinking of is how jayden betrayed me this way. I know he may not be a christian, but I thought we meant something to each other. He is someone I know God placed on my way to be a blessing in his life, or what if I'm wrong.

What if he's just someone who's sent from the devil to distract me.

Wait, I don't even remember the last time I had a long and proper conversation with God.

I think he is just a person sent to bring me away from God. 

So he's not God sent most definitely.

My breathing starts getting a bit easier as I start to relax. My head still has an ache, although it feels a lot better than it did a few minutes ago.

I then feel a hand on my shoulder, and I flinch to the touch.

I think I know who that may be...

Jayden.

I look at the person touching me, and I'm right, it's Jayden.

I look at him. Looking in his eyes to see if he really meant what he said earlier, and I can't seem to see any emotion in his eyes.

He looks like he isn't moved, like he doesn't care at all!

I'm so done with Jayden!

I look at where his hand is placed, which is on my shoulder.

I move back, removing his hand from my shoulder.

He finally shows emotion. He's confused, and I can tell with his brows lifted slightly.

"Don't touch me." I calmly whisper, I'm afraid that came out as a scolding

He moves at the back even more, leaving enough space between us.

I don't like this. This isn't how things were between us.

Now, things are starting to be like the beginning.

Back to strangers.

"I'm sorry, mikayla," he whispers

I shake my head in disappointment as I feel tears threatening to fall again.

Don't cry, micky. You're a strong girl.

"Thought you were different, Jayden," I bite my lips using it as a coping mechanism to stop the tears from falling

"But I was wrong."

"Mik-"

"Don't!" I bite on my lips harder

I straightened myself up, getting ready to leave.

Lord, please be my strength.

As I turn my back and start walking as fast as I can.

I hear Jayden speak.