I'm Not Of This World

Chapter 4: 'Can we be friends?'

JAYDEN MARTINEZ

Oh my goodness! Ever since I entered this school girls are disturbing me and I don't like it. It is so annoying.

One of the most craziest thing that happened yesterday was that they wrote their numbers on my arm, like who does that. And today they just kept on following me. Girls are sometimes crazy.

But luckily the day was over and I couldn't wait to get home and see how mom was doing.

The day I heard that she was diagnosed with liver cancer I was destroyed. She always believed in Christ Jesus but I stopped since that day. Because I asked God why did he always have to keep the bad people healthy and safe but the good people are the ones to die faster, or get sick or even get betrayed so since I just lost hope and stopped praying to God.

What was the use. Her life was at stake she could die any day in-between five years because she was already stage 4. Even though the doctors gave her different kinds of treatment it never helped.

But she always says: "Jayden, don't worry, I believe that God will heal me one day. But even if he does not and decides to take away my life then may his will be done."

Every time it would hurt me when she says that and looking at her everyday it's like she keeps on getting weak day by day.

Arriving home I immediately went straight to my parents room to check on mom.

I open and as usual see her asleep.

"Hey mom, glad to see you again." Saying that a tear fell down my cheek
"Uhm mom, my day was not that amazing but I will tell you all about it." I say with another tear going down my cheek.

I normally even talk to mom while she is sleeping because I believe that even if she can't physically hear me but she can hear me in her spirit.

"Today, was busy again with the girls never leaving my side. And I hate it. Just because I'm handsome it doesn't mean that they should follow me around.
I mean Lucas is handsome aswell but he's a senior so the senior girls also like him I guess. Can you imagine that they wrote their names on my arm yesterday on my first day of school, that's ridiculous.

Anyway mom please be safe and don't forget to call me when you wake up. I love you."

With that a tear went down again on my cheek and this time I just could not keep it again I had to let everything go out.

I ran to my room, locking the door and went straight to the corner, putting my head in between my knees like a little child.

The tears were flowing down I was crying endlessly.

"Why mom why!" Was all I called say.

I heard knocks on the door but I didn't open.

"Son, please open the door." My dad would say.

But I say this in response
"Dad leave me alone you don't feel what I feel."

And he would just leave.
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After an hour of crying I come out of my room.

And I go to my parents room again to check on mom. And I see Lucas talking to her I go to the side to see whether is she awake and she is.

I run towards the bed she is on and I push him to the side and hug her.

"Oh mom you're awake." I say with teary eyes

"Yes son." She gives me a warm smile

"Jayden you didn't have to push me like that." Lucas says

"Sorry, I wanted to see mom."