On my own-lewis Hamilton

Chapter 7

The next few days went quick I had a detention  on Thursday and it felt like it was going to go on for ever. I have tried my best in school but I just find it so hard. Luckily my dad doesn't care too much.

It's Tuesday and I'm just finishing packing before we have to get on the plane to Spain.
"Ugh I can't find anything" I say as I rummage through my wardrobe. I have a small walk in wardrobe but it's so full I've got so many clothes it's hard to find anything.
"Em we got to go in an hour are you packed?"
"Yep nearly" I rummage around trying to find my favourite pair on denim shorts.
"Whys your wardrobe so messy?"
"I'm trying to find my shorts" I say while still rummaging around the draws and looking on the hangers.
"Alright well I need to put your suitcase in the car so hurry up."
"Found it!" I say pulling them out of a huge pile of clothes dumped in the corner.

We were finally on our way to the airport I was so happy I got to miss school but I know I won't be aloud anymore since I can't miss too much.

We got to the plane and I sat down I felt really restless and agitated. I put my seatbelt on ready to takeoff I was trying to get comfy it was only a 2 hour flight but still. I just couldn't stop fidgeting.
"Em sit still we are about to take off"
"I'm trying" I say annoyed
"Less of the back chat and the attitude and just sit still for 10 min it we while we takeoff"
"Whatever" I say quietly to myself while sticking my middle finger up at him while I think he's not looking
"I saw that!"he says raising his voice "now behave before I change my mind about taking you to races with me"
I sat there trying not to laugh at his reaction. Like why's he in such a bad mood today.

We finally took off and I tried everything to entertain myself. It was hopeless. I got up and started just aimlessly wondering around. I didn't  think it was a problem it was only me and dad on the plane.
"What you doing?" I hear my dad ask as he looks up from his phone
"I dunno I'm bored"
"Just watch a movie or something"
"I've tried it's hopeless"
"Look i know you struggle to concentrate and stay still but it's only been 20minutes just at least go and sit down"
"Fine" I say wondering over to my seat
I sat there and I completely zoned out I was sat picking the skin around my thumb i realise I normally end up doing that when I'm bored.
"Em don't that"
"Well what do you want me to do I'm fucking bored out my mind" I snap
"Less of the swearing your phones gone if you do it again"
"Fucking hate you" I say without even thinking I instantly regret it I know he's not joking about it either. I see him walk over to my seat with angered look on his face
"Hand it over"
"No!" I say pissed off
"Emma I'm not going to tell you again!"
"I ain't giving it to you it's mine fuck off!!"
All of a sudden he snatches it out of my hands and puts in his pocket and sits back down.
"I hate you, you never used to be like this" I say looking out the window.
"Yeah well you never used to act like this, you used to be an angel and now your acting  like a devil all the time"
I sat there taken back by his words. My eyes fill up with tears I try my best to keep it in but it's hopeless. I feel tears tripping down my face.
"Yeah well I'm trying my best sorry I'm not a perfect daughter"I blurt out in anger 

I sat there in silence zoned out in my own world for the rest of the flight. We finally landed and didn't speak to dad once I was still angry from what he said.
We finally got the hotel and went to my room straight away I just wanted to be alone. I don't know if I'm over reacting but more recently we've been arguing all the time I never used to argue or be in trouble when I was younger.

"Emma get ready for bed" I hear him say through the door.
I get changed as I just want to go to sleep and get away from everything.
"Ready for bed?" He says giving me a slight smile
I nod before getting into bed trying to avoid eye contact with him.
"Em look I'm sorry for earlier I know things are different and your getting older I guess it's just hard for me to except that"
"Im sorry to I shouldn't have acted like that toward you" I say as I hug him and bury my face into his chest.
"It's ok baby" he says softly as he picks me up and holds me tightly as I wrap my arms round his neck. I could feel tears falling down my face again. I hated myself when I did this I wish I could just control my emotions and not feel like such a baby all the time.
I feel a kiss on my head as he puts me back down.
"All right in bed now it's late"
I nod as I cuddle myself into the duvet.
"Night princess"
"Night dad" I say as I yawn.
I felt so exhausted from today. It's definitely been a quite a down day hopefully tomorrow can be better.

I woke up abruptly the next morning by my dad telling me to get up.
"It's so early let me sleep longer"
"It's nearly 9am you've been asleep well over 10 hours" "anyway we are going to the beach today so hurry up and get ready"
I put on my pink bikini I looked in the mirror looking at my body I always hated it. Everyone always says I have the perfect body but I just wish I could be that extra bit slimmer.
I put a dress on over the top to cover up and slide on my sliders.
"Em you ready" I hear my dad shout
"Yep" I say as I walk out my room

It was about a 10 minute drive down to the beach. Every year we went to Spain we always went to the same beach it was always really quiet and it was so pretty. We got there and there was no one there which I always love.
I lay a towel on the ground and lay there trying to get a tan. I tanned quite easily to hopefully I won't be so pale anymore.

"Em come in the water with me"
"No I'm getting a tan"
"Your just boring come on it will be fun I promise"
"Fine" I sigh giving in. I get in the water and it's beautiful and it's  also really warm.
The waters really calm and still. I start swimming out I actually forgot how much I loved the beach .
"Em don't go too far!"
"Fine" I say as I swim in closer "your so boring"
I say as I approach closer to him.
"I just don't want you drowning that's all"
"Whatever bit dramatic of you ask me I have been able to swim since I was like 5"

We spent the rest of the day at the beach relaxing and swimming around. It was probably the most fun I've had in ages.
It got to the evening and it was so pretty with the sunset and the water. I wish everyday could be like this.
Today was definitely a good day.

Authors note-Sorry I haven't posted a new chapter in ages I have been really busy recently. I feel like I'm struggling for ideas at the moment so this was a bit of a filler chapter if you have any ideas please suggest them.