On my own-lewis Hamilton

Chapter 8

Yesterday was such a good day I haven't had a day like that in a long time. I miss just feeling stress free and getting away from everything the beach is definitely one of my favourite places.

I woke up this morning by the ray of sunshine beaming through the gap of the curtain. It's defo nicer here than in England. I lay in bed lounging around for a bit. I still haven't gotten my phone back so I don't know what time it is. I hear a knock at the door. "Come in" I say tiredly I look up and see him stood by the door frame.
"Time to get up princess" he says while smiling at me. He seems like in a good mood today which is always good. I nod before slowly dragging myself out of bed. I'm defo not a morning person.
I had a shower and washed my hair. I made sure I blow dried it and straighten it since In the heat it gets really wavy and puffy. The one thing that was good about going to a different country though was that my hair always stayed light since during the winter my hair always goes a dark dirty blonde. I then did my basic skincare and makeup routine. I just moisturised then put brow gel, concealer, mascara and lipgloss.
I put on my gold jewellery and earrings then got changed into a cute little white dress with sandals
I realised the dress was a little short as I haven't worn it in ages and I must of grown a little recently.

"Em you ready?" He asks while putting on his shoes getting ready to leave.
"Yep just coming"
"You look beautiful but since when was that dress so short I only bought you that a year ago"
"I dunno" I say while shrugging my shoulders hoping he's not going to make me change.
"You don't have time to change but your not wearing that again" he says point his finger at me
"But I like it this length" I moan while leaving the room.
"Yeah well your not a stripper you don't need your ass on show"
"It's literally mid thigh" i sigh
"I don't care I said it's to short and that's final" he says while walking out the hotel to the car.

I got into the car and put my seatbelt on.
"Here's your phone by the way but if you act like that again it's gone straight away"
"Yes whatever" I say while looking at all my notifications. I look and realise I have literally gone viral on TikTok. I don't know how I feel about it. I want people to see me for who I am and not just being my dad's daughter. But I'm also worried about what if my dad finds out or if I get hate. I haven't even told him I got TikTok he wants me to stay of social media as long as possible since he's definitely worried about the dangers of it.
"Emma are you even listening" I hear him raise his voice.
"Yes I am" I say while slightly looking up.

We drove to the track it was about a 10 minute drive. I could feel the cold air blow onto my face it was so nice since it was really hot outside. I looked at my messages since I had some messages from friends and stuff but still all was in my head was the TikTok I posted. I looked at my following again it's gone up to 150k. I look scrolling through the comments I don't know why i do this to myself I know it will end bad. I scroll through and see loads of nice kind comments but the further I scroll it got worse I kept on seeing comments like
'she's not even pretty I don't know what she's trying to show off'
The worst ones are ones about my body I've always been insecure. Especially about my stomach and thighs. The worst part is that my body doesn't even look bad I just hate it.

I look up from my phone and realise we are about to arrive. I sat there trying my best not to think about it. I guess they are kind of true I just don't want to admit it.

We get there and it's busy as normal with it being practice today. I get out the car and I feel the heat  and humidity of the hair brush against me.
"Hurry up we're late" dad says while speed walking towards the garage through the paddock.

We are literally always late surely the team are just used to it by know or just tell us to get there earlier because we are hopeless.

We get in through the garage and the teams busy getting the car ready for practice 1. I sat in the corner out the way waiting for it to start as dad's getting ready in his drivers room. I always the loved the feel and energy of the team but there's definitely been extra pressure since he's in a title battle with red bull driver max verstappen. Dad's currently in the lead right now but not by much and we know how strong they have been recently. But it would mean so much to him if he won since he would get an 8th world title which is the most any drivers got.