Invisible Strings of the Hearts || MYG FF

Chapter 8

YOONGI'S POV 🖤

My eyes opened when the sunlight was hitting my eyes. That's totally frustrating when the Sun wakes me up in the morning, especially when I have no work to do. I slowly adjusted my eyes to the light and moved to my side when i realised i wasn't sleeping alone in the room, on the bed.

I looked at Leena blankly, she was sleeping peacefully while facing me. I really don't know why the situation forced us into this? She doesn't deserve this, actually I've realised no woman deserves this, deserves to be with me. I'm the worst version of myself.

Looking at her, I realised something more. She's naturally beautiful even when she had no make up on, also having a frown on her forehead cause of the sunlight disturbing her sleep. But The way the sunlight fell on her face illuminating the beauty was truly undeniable. She is... Charming. I suddenly snapped back into the reality shrugging all the thoughts of my mind.

Beauty doesn't matter to me. No that doesn't. I can ruin her life, Not can, I will if she stays near me just like I ruined Yn's life for my love's sake. I was too blinded to see their pure love. Yesterday when I saw them in the Exhibition hall, I realised how good they look together. More specifically, she looks happy, genuinely and secured.

I sacrificed her but My love for her was true. I can never deny that. The potential between us could work well if I didn't abandon her to save her. Anyways, she's happy, that's all that matters to me. I'll just pretend of memory loss until the situation is better then I'll get back into my dark world again. "And What about leena?" My inner self spoke in a low voice.

Leena! I have to push her away from me, make her hate me even more, piss her off that she'll leave. I can't even think of a relationship or Commitment right after getting a heartbreak. That will be worse for me, us.. I can never love Leena the way she deserves. I can never ever. And I'm not intended to.

I got up from the bed and walked towards the window to close the curtains. I looked back when I saw her frown getting normal. She's sleeping peacefully again. I shook my head with a sigh then walked towards the washroom.

I somehow managed to have a bath with one hand, Careful not to wet my other hand. This is too hard for me.. I looked at my reflection through the mirror when It sarcastically smiled at me. 'you jumped from the building thinking that you'd die but look at you, so pathetic, Pathetic than actual being dead. Having others' Pity, Having tons of sympathies.. and look at you can't even do anything by your own properly, taking others' help in everything like a parasite. Min Yoongi, you're a looser. Bloody looser'

"SHUT UP" i reached the glass Shampoo bottle and threw it on the mirror when I realised how dumb the decision was! The mirror shattered into pieces infront of me. I huffed, breath heavily.. My eyes are blurring.. I was feeling restless.. I heard knocks on the door, multiple knocks with a faint female voice..

"Yoongi? Yoongi!! What was the sound? You okay?? Open the door.. yoongi"

Leena!

Having others' pity, having tons of sympathies.

and look at you can't even do anything by your own properly, taking others' help in everything like a parasite.

Looser

Bloody looser.

No no..I don't need this. I don't need help. I don't...I don't need anyone's pity on me. I hate this. I hate being treated this way. Everything is fake and stupid, meaningless.

I grabbed the towel and wrapped it around me before opening the door. I saw Leena standing there with her eyes showing worry.

Care for me? No one should and no one will. It's all fake. It's all just a pity of my situation..

"Yoongi you ok-"

"Move" I spoke louder and clear. She confusedly looked at me

"You.. you alright?"

"DIDN'T YOU HEAR ME? MOVE!" I shouted when she flinched and moved from my way. I walked out..

"Do you need hel-"

"No." I made clear that I need no assistance.
"I don't need any help. And I'm absolutely fine now. Better stay away from me"

She gulped.

"W..what pissed you off that much?"she gathered her courage to ask me when Blood boiled in me. I don't stand questions.

"Who are you to ask that? Do you really started to think me your husband or something??" My harsh voice was enough to tear anyone up but she didn't. She stayed calm.

"I have no intention to think you my husband. I was concerned cause I heard a loud noise which woke me up and almost gave me a heartattack and I was worried that you are hurt. And you came out of the washroom acting like an asshole, I really wonder what piss you off like this that you're bursting it out on me?"

I grabbed her chin to face me, harsh and Tight

"First, Do. Not. Call. Me. An. Asshole.. second, Never dare to talk to me in this tone. I won't bear it."

Her eyes held a deep eye contact with me. Her messy hair is distracting. I clenched my Jaw while my grip on her chin tightened even more..

"Don't look at me like that"

A smile crept on her face..she Chuckled bitterly

"I'm just thinking that Just yesterday you seemed like a human. Maybe a bit of humanity peeked through your eyes but now all I see is a monster. I don't know which one is real You, Min Yoongi"

"I am the monster. Get this in your fucking mind.. Now get the hell out of my room" I left her chin when she growled.

"This. Is. My. Room. Mr. Min Yoongi. You do not order me.."

"I can do whatever I want"

"People learn from there mistakes but you know what? You'll always be the same. ASSHOLE"

saying that she opened her suitcase and reached the clothes of her and got out of the room like a storm.

Asshole
Asshole
Asshole

Her words are replaying in my head. I grabbed the vase behind me and smacked it on the floor.

I burned in my anger. No one dares to talk to me in this way,in this tone.

How dare she?