Book of Complete Randomness

10 June 2024

According to 1ellothere1, the book "where u(aka me) posted something concerning"

Well, have another something concerning ig

*shrugs*
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"sometimes the supporter wants to be supported too"

i wish i could tell someone how scary it was
how scary it was to watch my friend fall in front of my eyes
and i can't do anything to ease her pain

in no way am i trying to blame the victim
its not her fault that she keeps fainting

but like
i wish for someone to pat me on the back and tell me
"everything will be fine. you tried your best"

or is that too selfish? i don't know
ive only had two months of experience after all

i can't focus
not when my thoughts are running all over the place
panicking and worrying

should i tell someone? maybe i shouldn't
they either don't care, or they wouldn't understand

its been only what? 3 months?
by the end of the year, i might be a whole new person
maybe ill worry about any decline in one's personal health
maybe ill be over-sensitive when someone complains about a headache
I don't know.
I honestly don't.

i wish i could tell someone how i feel
but who can I share with?
they will not understand, and he doesn't care

and ive decided
through the lines of poetry shall i express
henceforth, a new piece created

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Less concerning stuff
So a dude in my class told me
"喂 你考到很好leh"
Basically saying my exam results are good
Has dude seen his 💀💀
Bro's the only one who got A in history and got a 100 in geography
Meanwhile my highest was just 90
maths can be easy guys

Welp
That's basically it
Also
I'm most likely going to stop posting stories on Wattpad (not like I successfully posted one)

I feel like no one sees it anyway so why put effort into squeezing my braincells for it?
(Not like I have motivation to finish it)

Anyways
That's it
See you :)

lil hidden something
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Edit: she's in the hospital😔😔
Edit2: I actually desperately need a hug someone pls