Book of Complete Randomness

27 June 2024

"maybe one day I should leave"

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I remember how little me was always waiting to go online immediately
Now i just hope for free time at school to last a little longer
I dont know when
I've seen to enjoy school a little more than home

I don't know when
But I seem to enjoy whenever they pass by my class
Much more than when someone is online

Is it because I'm always the third wheel?
Is it because I keep getting ignored?
Is it because I feel her hatred across the screen?
Is it because they have someone they are comfortable to annoy?
I don't know.

Always the same person here.
I feel tired sometimes.
And they look so happy chatting away.
Maybe I shouldn't disturb.
Maybe i should one day leave and not disturb their happiness.
They look so happy without me around.
She looks so cheerful without me around.
Maybe i should leave one day.
Maybe it's for the best

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Edit:
also
I've told my senior about planning to leave choir
And her response is making me feel really bad for leaving