Book of Complete Randomness

22 June 2024

1ellothere1 help me keep track how many concerning stuff I've posted

pls don't laugh I've come to realize I have a sensitive mind

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does she hates me?
maybe she does.
maybe she doesn't.
i can't tell.
do they want me here?
maybe they do.
maybe they don't.
i don't know.

i feel unseen
i feel ignored
maybe im hallucinating.
maybe im not.
maybe im there
only because i started the whole thing
maybe im a bother.
maybe no one likes me.
maybe no one wants to talk to me.
maybe they think im a pile of scrap.

maybe i became the person i hated
the person who always requires attention
the person who overthinks over every single reply
maybe im just a sensitive crybaby
maybe because i can't see you
maybe because we're so far apart

am i a burden, i wonder?
i can't see your face, i wish i can
it would be so much easier to tell that way
if you don't want me here
dont hesitate to tell
as often
ill gladly see myself out

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If it wasn't easy to tell
I basically feel shit.
I don't know why.
I just do.

Edit:
What if I leave?
Would anyone care at all?
Or would they rejoice
With me not around?

Edit 2:
Does she hate me?
Maybe she does.
Is it because I'm annoying?
Maybe it is.

The difference around others hurt me
Or am I just a sensitive piece of trash?
Or am I a manipulator
Who always wants to be the center of attention?

I don't know.
I'm not sure.
My mind is filled with scribbles.
Lost and messed up.