A Matter of Time - Bbangsaz

Chapter 35

Hanni's POV

There were two days left for the end of the course, the exams were over, and I have to say that I did not do so bad, I even passed mathematics, with the minimum grade but I passed, and I was happy about it.

I was in my room listening to music; sad music that made me remember the girl I should not remember.

I don't understand why people play sad music when they are bad to make themselves worse, it's like you are feeding more your suffering but I was doing the same.

—Hanni! — someone touched my arm.

—Beomgyu? — I said when I opened my eyes making my thoughts stop—What are you doing here? — I asked confused when I saw him.

—Your mother let me pass —I sat on the bed— I came to see how you were, to see if you wanted to go out to somewhere else.

— No, I don't feel like going out.

— What is happening to you? You've been weird for like two weeks...

I remembered how Minji humiliated me in the library.

— Nothing's wrong with me, it's just me.

— But you're off, I can tell that you're sad, what's wrong with you? Trust me, we are friends — I got out of bed and went to my desk so as not to continue talking about the subject, I began to rummage through papers as if I were looking for something important — You fell in love with her... Didn't you? — I turned quickly at his question.

— What?

—Please answer me— I didn't answer, and everybody knows that whoever remains silent agrees —Why her? — I raised my shoulders and noticed how my eyes filled with tears, Beomgyu came to me and hugged me. I think it was the first time he hugged me sincerely, as a friend, not to take advantage of me.

We sat on the bed.

—How did you know?

— I saw you in the hallway, you looked quite... close, and the way you looked at each other... —I lowered my head embarrassed— Hey, don't be ashamed, in fact, I thank you for that hot image of kissing a girl, even if it was Kim.

—What a pig you are— I pushed him, and he laughed.

—Hey! It was a joke— He laughed.

— I thought you didn't like gay people, both girls and boys, because of the way you treat... —I couldn't even name her and Beomgyu seemed to notice.

— No, I support gay rights, really, it's just that I can't stand her as a person, that's why I treat her like that... But you didn't answer me, why Kim?

— Because I'm stupid, that's why... But it doesn't matter, she just used me, she used me, she got what she wanted and that's it.

— I do not know what to tell you...

—You don't need to say anything, but please don't tell anybody— I asked him.

—I've known it for a long time, and I never said anything, and that's going to continue like that—I gave him a smile— Hanni, you know that I love you very much, I wouldn't do anything to hurt you — I hugged him —It's a relief to think that it's not all my fault — I looked at him strangely — that you didn't want to be with me — He laughed — Now that you like girls.

— Well, I really don't know, but I'm telling you that if I'm not with you it's because you're my friend and I don't see you any other way.

— Condemned to the friendzone — We laughed — that can change though, before you hated Kim and now you don't. So, the same thing could happen with me.