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this is a negative poem. PLEASE be kind to yourself and skip if you need to. it isnt worth it.
addiction wasent what the media made it out to be
it messed with your mind in ways you didnt know could happen
made you believe you wanted something so bad when in reality you didnt.
you wanted to badly to start again right?
but once you did your body filled with the same overwhelming guilt.
the guilt that kept you from doing it again for a while.
the guilt that was scary and unbearable.
the guilt you origionally didnt care about and wanted.
you wanted the scars until they dont go away.
until you start forever recognizing the red and white lines that have stained your skin.
even if some say you dont recognize their even there.
you can see them.
you feel them.
but this is what you wanted right?
why would you do this in the first place if you DIDNT
because you cant help it.
because that little voice in your head keeps yelling at you.
i dont know if that voice ever actually goes away. or if the scars ever actually heal. if the skin ever fades and if suddenly the urges actually begin to disappear.
but maybe in a way its ok, because in the end
we wanted this anyway.
and we're going to heal.
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Mental Illness Poems
PoetryAs a mental illness survivor. I decided to write poems about whats it's like to have a mental illness. If you are struggling please know you're not alone. You don't deserve to live like that. You can beat it even if it doesn't go away. I believe in...
