my baby - luke hemmings

Chapter 7 - The Notebook

The Notebook

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Paige's Pov

I woke up the next day with a killer headache. My makeup from the night before still on, laying in my bed with my converse on. I don't even remember how i got home. Or anything that happened after those first few shots for that matter.

I do remember the way Luke looked. So beautiful yet so sad. So successful yet still so numb. I wanted to go and check on him but i had a feeling i had embarrassed myself enough in the last 24 hours with Luke i didn't need to do any more damage.

I spent that day in bed, trying to do some more writing. Writing has always been my passion. Poems, short stories, sometimes songs. It's been my only outlet my whole life. When my parents passed away, i was 18. The only thing that got me through that grief and the guilt of feeling like it was all my fault, was writing.

This last year i've had pretty bad writers block, i've only written a few poems. I'm running out of inspiration recently. I don't do anything anymore. I worked at a cafe, but after the accident i stopped working because of my mental state and i had money and a house left to me because i was an only child, so i was pretty secure for the time being.

This house is big. Even when my parents were here it was too big for the three of us. Now they're gone and i feel two feet tall.

I decide to go for a walk. After showering and brushing my teeth i throw on an oversized hoodie and some leggings and I head over to the park behind Lukes house.

I make my way over to the tree i sit at to think. It's already getting dark. I take my usual seat on the grass underneath the tree. I put my headphones in and closed my eyes. Sparks by Coldplay playing in my ears. My parents would sing that song to me all the time. When i play it and the familiar chords start i imagine they're still here with me. I can still feel the warmth of their arms. My eyes start to well up with tears at the thoughts i'm having.

I feel a hand on my shoulder and i jump out of my skin. "Jesus fucking christ. Oh my god Luke you scared me"  i say standing up and wiping my eyes
He has a apologetic look in his eyes until he notices i'm crying
"Hey are you okay? Paige you're crying" he says worried
"I'm fine i have allergies" i lie
"Paige don't lie to me" he says quietly
"I'm fine Luke! Okay! I gotta go" i yell and turn away

"Hey are you sure you don't wanna hang out again? I could really use a friend tonight" he says as if he's trying to make up for something
I contemplate for a second. "I'm tired" I mumble
"We can watch a movie! At your house?" he asks desperately
"Okay fine" I say and walk back to my house with him following closely behind.

I get him a drink sit him in the lounge and tell him to pick a movie on Netflix. I needed to get changed after realising how terrible i look.

I go upstairs and change into a black lace cami, my plaid pyjama shorts and my knee high socks. I go back downstairs to see Luke waiting on the couch with a smile on his face. i look up at the tv to see he's chosen the notebook. I giggle and sit down next to him.
"This is my favourite movie!" i say to him excitedly
He looks away and goes silent "Uhh yeah, this uh, was Sarah's favourite too"

I almost visibly shudder at her name. I hate her for what she did to Luke. And part of me feels guilty for being slightly happy that Luke is single. I can't help but feel like a terrible person for having that thought.

He turns the movie on and we begin watching. I feel so much tension in the air and he probably doesn't even notice how tense i am. Trying to hide my obvious attraction for Luke is too hard. He is sitting so close to me i feel the warmth radiating from him.
Part of me can't even believe he's in my house. I sneak a glance at him and he catches my eye. I quickly look away.

"Something wrong little girl?" He asks smirking.
"No! I'm just.. tired" i lie looking up at him. Even sitting next to him he's way taller than me.
"Do you want to have a nap? Lay down." he grabs me and guides my head down to his lap.
I can hardly breathe or move and i think he notices how nervous i am.
"Relax Paige. It's okay you can go to sleep" He says while he runs his hand through my hair. 
As nervous as i am my eyes start to close. I'm so tired and so happy i can't help but doze off.

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OKAY SO
i'm so sorry if it's getting confusing I'm TRYING SO HARD to fix it.

ILY GUYS ONE MORE CHAPTER TONIGHT THEN MORE TOMORROW XXX

- Cym