My Ex - Crush

Episode 15

Deepika's POV :

" Does that mean you wouldn't reject me if I confess ? " He asked me raising his eyebrows.

System reboot failed.

I repeat, system reboot failed.

Wait a minute, I don't understand this shit !

So, he is asking my general opinion or is he hinting that I might be the girl he likes ?

" Alien "

" Nerd "

" Robot"

" I am sure Deepika would never find love. It's obvious with the way she is so stuck with her books. "

" Look at her, she is so lean, boys like girls with some fat. They want something to hold onto when they actually do the deed. With Deepika, haaahhhaaa "

" Oops, sorry Deepika. I couldn't recognise you from the shadow, that's why you were cut from the group photo. "

" Her husband would be the most poorest soul in this entire world, because he would have to, you know, do it all by himself to himself,,, haahh haaahh"

All those baseless comments thrown at me in school came rushing back to my mind.

I wasn't actually bullied. But I was treated differently. Till this moment, I never really felt bad about it. Infact I was a proud nerd. But right now, with Arjun standing right in front of me, I felt small.

I know what my own classmates are talking behind my back.

Nobody would ever love me. That's not possible. I wanted to lock myself in a small box and just....

He is smart, Street smart, nice and hot too. He is so poetic, my writings would look like trash beside his. I am nothing, I am just a book worm. I am not on his level at all. I am not special like him. Wherever he walks, he stands out.

I like him. Yes I do. But would I ever want something more ?, I don't know. I don't think I am worth it. I don't think I could ever be liked by anyone, let alone him.

If I answer his question thinking that I might be the girl he likes and he laughs out loud, I would never be able to bear that embarrassment.

But his eyes are honest !, He is serious.

" I don't have forever" he said pushing me to think faster.

I gulped hard.

Let me be the fool.

" Well,,,, In a imaginary world, in a very hypothetical situation, if a boy like you confesses to a girl like me, would she reject a boy like you or not ?, is that what you are trying to mean?" I asked spinning a nonsense question at him.

He looked down, shook his head and bit back his smile.

I was trembling inside.

" Yes, Tell me your answer. " He said.

I can't tell him the truth. I just can't. It would be too shameful if he rejects my truthful answer.

" In that imaginary world, there is no way a boy like you would ever like a girl like me, I don't think that could happen at all even in a hypothetical situation." I said and breathed out loud.

His face dropped down. A clear disappointment was seen on his face.

He gently tapped on my drafting table and stood up nodding to himself.

He looked at me sideways and shook his head.

I was waiting for him to say something, but he didn't. Why did he ask me the toughest question I could ever answer and not reason why he asked that !