Bully Me

Chapter Twelve

Axton Walker

Our wolves met and know now that even my wolf is obsessed with him. It's like he went feral inside my head when he saw Oakley's wolf. When Oakley let us get close to him. I've seen his wolf before obviously, and we've been around each other all our lives.

It's just different. Something's shifted.

I decided to give Oakley as much space as i can without pulling away completely. I want to put in effort to show im trying, but i dont want to suffocate him. Not yet anyways. Once we repair our relationship, once i can prove im worthy of him. And i will prove it.

I have too.

Mom's sitting in the living room area of our little like apartment at the pack house. I make my way over to her, sitting down beside her. She gives me a small smile, closing the book she was reading.

"Hey honey" her voice is soft. "Your brother and Felix are coming to dinner tonight"

I nod, running my fingers through my hair. "Sounds good. Haven't talked to Reed in a bit anyway"

"He's always with that boy, so I'm not surprised. They're very close" stands, folding a blanket she must've been using.

"Yeah, they're best friends so i'm not surprised"

"So when are we gonna talk about your mate?" she asks, setting the blanket on the back of the couch. "Oakley Carson? When are we going to meet him? I'd like to meet his moms. We went to school together, but I haven't seen them in years. I'd also like to meet him"

"I'll mention it but uh. We're not in a good spot. Our relationship is very.. Complicated."

"It's not because of your dad, is it? Some people are very small minded. Who you love doesn't matter. Who's your mate shouldnt matter"

"No um" i clear my throat, running my hands up and down my thighs. "I'm more than proud to have Oakley as my mate. It's just- i was terrible to him. I bullied him, and fought with him constantly. Physically fought. I have a lot of making up to do and I just don't know if it'll work out "I admit how i've been feeling. Because i dont know if he will be able to forgive me.

But I'm not going to lie and pretend I'm perfect, and that he has no reason to hate me. He does.

"You gotta fix it" mom says, sitting back down beside me. "It's never okay to get into physical fights. But you had an absent mother, and an abusive father. Surely he will give you time to fix things"

"It doesn't change what i did"

"No. It doesn't" she wraps her arms around me, pulling my body into hers. "I will be better. You will fix this. Everything will work out"

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"Hey" Reed knocks on my open door, before coming in. I sit up, leaning back against my headboard.

"Hey" Reed has the same hair as me, but green eyes. He's also a couple inches shorter, and thinner than I am. He doesn't do any sports or any working out besides training so he's not as bulky as me.

"Felix went home for a bit." he clears his throat, nodding to my PS5 "Want to play COD?"

"Sure" I scoot to the edge of my bed, grabbing a controller. Reed comes all the way in, grabbing the other one. We get the game set up in silence. Then he breaks it.

"I don't know how to react to you having a guy as a mate. Everything dad said to us. How do I just unlearn all that?" Reed is 16, almost 17. So he's a year younger than me. I don't expect him to understand. Not really.

"Well for starters" I move back, leaning against the wall my bed is pushed against. "It doesn't really concern you. Not to be rude, but who I'm with isn't really your issue. Plus if you meet him, you'll like him. It's just like how we all like Felix. If you guys were mates it wouldn't change anything. You might see us kiss or something like that but it's not really something you need to worry about"

"Plus, what dad ingrained in us isn't normal. Loving someone means loving who they are. Not what they are "I glance away, to see Reed nodding along with my words. He's biting the inside of his cheek, but he's listening.

"I guess you're right. I just don't know how to unsee that kind of thing i guess"

"Sexuality really isn't that big of a deal. Our pack, our town is just so behind. If you go to other places it's not like that there. Bigger cities and towns aren't so judgemental"

"Dad uh. He caught Felix and i cuddling once" he runs his fingers through his hair, messing it up. "Felix is very touchy, and it's just how we are, I guess. It's comforting and it's just us. But he caught us cuddling, and the next day when Felix left, he beat the shit out of me" he shakes his head. "That's when I started going to his house more. I didn't want to give up our cuddling, no matter how hard dad hit me. All I could think about was holding him again. Letting him take all that pain away. And when i went to his house, he did"

"So seeing you kiss, or cuddle with your mate won't bother me or anything like that. I just dont know how to turn off dad's voice. The things he said to me when he beat me up that night was terrible. I can't even repeat that shit"

"Dad caught me watching gay porn" I blurted, then a humorless laugh leaves me. "He's known I'm gay since I was 14. I wasn't doing anything. I was just simply watching it. He lost it, and fucked me up so bad the school called mom. My eye was swollen shut, and I had bruises covering my body. So I get it, "I nod.

"I didn't know that" Reed murmurs, and all I can manage is another nod.

We play the rest of the night in silence, until we separate to go to bed. After I strip out of my clothes, I climb in bed and grab my phone. I get comfortable under the blankets, and pull up my imessages.

I type in his name, and then a message. To Oakley.

Me: hey

Oakley: hey?

He answers a lot quicker than I expected, especially with it being almost midnight.

Me: my mom wanted to invite you and your family over for dinner.

Oakley: i'll talk to my moms. They like to host, so probs you guys come to us.

Me: really?

Oakley: i'm trying Axton

Me: im so sorry

I type it out, but i dont hit send. Then I delete it and take a deep breath.

Me: thank you

Me: how was your day?

Oakley: it was okay. Yours?

Me: got to see my brother. Usually he's with his friend

Oakley: i dont have any siblings. Is it nice?

Me: sometimes. When he's not annoying lol

Oakley: i gotta go, it's late.

Me: goodnight, see you tomorrow.

He doesn't respond, but he reads it. I close my phone, setting it off to the side on the nightstand. I stare at the ceiling for a bit. He said he's trying. He wants to try.

So he isn't going to reject me, yet anyways. I have time to fix this, and make this right. And that's all I want to do. 

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Axton has a lot of things to work on. Do you think he can be what Oakley deserves? I hope so. 

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