Bully Me

Chapter Fifteen

Oakley Carson

I kissed Axton. Or he kissed me? I'm not sure, but we kissed last weekend. We haven't sense, and it's Tuesday now.

We haven't talked about it, either. I have a hickey on my neck though, so our friends know something happened. It was awkward at first. Axton's friends just smirked, and Giana was shocked. I was too. I just felt this pull, this need to be close to him.

And then I wanted more. I need more. I want it all. Or I did, when we were kissing. I was ready to mate then. Now that I have a clear head, I'm glad my moms came home because I don't think I would've stopped it if things went further.

I don't know if Axton would've stopped it either. It's like something dark settled over us. It was so consuming. So addicting. His lips against mine.. Against my neck and skin. It just felt so damn good. I want it to happen again, but I'm nervous. What if we can't control it and things go further?

I don't know.

It's lunch time, and we've been sitting with Axton and his friends. Giana says if im comfortable with it we should help build the bond. She's been getting along well with Jake, so it's nice she has someone.

I'm pushing my food around on my plate when John makes a joke about Axton and I 'getting it on'. Ford overhears, and his brows are furrowed. "You guys are really mates?" he asks, and Axton glares at him.

"Yeah, we are"

"Oakley-"

"Don't talk to him" Axton snaps, a low growl following it and everyone around us goes quiet. Ford huffs, and then makes a dramatic exit. My heart speeds up, and nausea eats at my stomach at all the attention on us now.

My eyes find Axton, and he leans in close. Although everyone can hear us, its quiet and were fucking werewolves.

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah" I force a smile, and his brows furrow. "It's fine" I nod, and he drops it, but I know he doesn't believe me.

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I'm honestly stupid. But I think I just want closure. Ford asked me to meet up, and I agreed. I don't like how we ended things, and I know he can be better than that. So I'm making my way to the forest that connects to the pack house.

I found him pretty easily. He's leaning against a tree, typing on his phone.

"Hey" I yell out, as I make my way over. He slips his phone into his pocket, and gives me a small smile.

"Hey Oaks. Thank you so much for agreeing to meet with me. I want to talk about the last time we met. We met up"

"Yeah, okay '' I nod, stopping a few feet in front of him.

"I'm so sorry. I was so caught off guard by everything. Everything with Axton and his friends. Everything with us- i just fucked up so bad. I'm so sorry. It's like my wolf is pushing me to you. I don't know. I really thought we'd be mates I guess. My wolf is so obsessed with you, it's so hard to understand"

He runs his fingers through his hair, stepping closer to me. "I should have better control over myself, and i fucked up so bad. I don't expect you to forgive me, but i needed you to know i was sorry"

"I appreciate the apology" I nod, and he gives me a small smile.

"I just don't understand how you're with Axton" he says, his brows furrowing.

"It's not really your business, honestly. I appreciate the apology but I don't want anything to do with you anymore. You assaulted me, Ford. I said no, but you didn't care. I get what we had was fun, but it was a mistake-"

"A mistake?" Ford's voice sounds broken, and his eyes narrow. "A mistake is giving Axton a chance. A mistake is ending things between us. Not what happened to us."

"You are just not in the right mindset. You have a mate out there waiting for you, and once you find them you'll understand-"

"I don't understand. I don't want my mate. I want you" he shakes his head. "I'd reject my mate for you"

His words shock me, and my brows furrow this time. "You can't possibly mean that"

"I do," he nods, stepping closer. It catches me off guard, and what he says confuses the fuck out of me.

"Rejecting your mate is very serious. That's not something you should just say like that, Ford. Plus i- I don't want you. I'm sorry, but it's true. I want my mate. I want the bond."

"I can give you so much more than that Oaks' ' he cups my jaw, and i'm still too stunned to process what is happening. He was apologizing, and now he's saying he wants me more than his mate?

"I can give you real love, and safety. I can give you everything. He couldn't possibly give you that" Ford shakes his head.

I grip his wrists, pulling him away from me. "I'm sorry I have to say this, but I don't want you. I'll never want you the way I want him. I'll never want anything from you again, Ford. I'll never, ever be with you. I'm sorry but you need to know that"

"Oaks don't say that, please don't say that"

"It's true-"

"I don't want to hurt you. I really, really don't" my blood runs cold, and my spine stiffens.

"Are you threatening me?"

"It's not a threat" he shakes his head. "But I'll do whatever I have to do to keep you. To make you mine"

"Okay- I'm done with this" I turn on my heel, but then I'm being grabbed and shoved into a tree. My back hits it hard, and I let out a heavy breath. Ford is pushing his legs between mine.

"I'm so sorry, Oaks. But I'm doing this because I love you."

His words confuse me, and then sharp agonizing pain erupts in my neck. Ford's fucking teeth are in my neck-

Ford is marking me.

The thought hits me hard, panic surges through my stomach, and the pain doesn't turn to pleasure like it should. It just gets worse. I scream, I scream so loud birds fly away. White licks at the corner of my vision, and my head drops against the trees.

I'm crying- I'm sobbing actually. I feel Ford pull away, and I feel a bond trying to spark to life between us. But it fizzes out, and all I can feel is pain.

Everything is so fuzzy, that I don't realize Ford is being pulled off me until I hit the ground. I don't realize there's a group of people around us. But I heard him. My mate.

"Fuck baby" he's holding me close to his body. "He won't stop bleeding! Uncle Kade, it's gushing!" I hear the panic in his voice.

I feel the bond solidifying. I feel it growing, and a pavement being made.

But it's not with the guy who tried to mark me. It's with my mate.

I don't know what else is happening, I don't know what I'm saying, but I'm saying something. My throat hurts. Maybe I'm screaming?

I feel the tears- or the blood soaking my skin. I feel it all.

I feel Axton's agony.

Then I feel nothing. 

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Oh my god. Did you expect this? I knew something was fucked up with Ford. Oakley goes through so much, its exhausting. He deserves a break. What do you think is gonna happen next?

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