Bully Me

Chapter Twenty Seven

Oakley Carson

I hurl my guts up, for the second time today. I'm in the school bathroom, on my knees in front of the toilet. I feel like I'm dying, and it sucks.

I've been struggling to eat, and when i do it makes me sick. It's comforting to know I won't gain any weight but..

Then the baby won't get the nutrients it needs.

I'm 12 weeks along now. It's been almost a month since we found out, and it's been rocky. I've been sick a lot, and we've been trying to find an apartment, but that hasn't been going well at all.

Pushing to my feet, I grab my bag off the floor and flush the toilet. I make my way to the sink, pulling out a little bag from inside my backpack. I grab my toothbrush and toothpaste, quickly brushing my teeth.

Once I'm done, I put everything away, and head to lunch. Axton has our food, sitting at our table on his phone. He's chewing the inside of his cheek, and when I sit he turns towards me. "I texted you, didn't want to link you and give you a headache" he murmurs.

Throwing up and linking is a no go for me. It's too much in my head and gives me migraines. It sucks.

"Sorry" I murmured. Axton shakes his head, rubbing my back.

"My mom said bread might help." I nod, picking a piece of the buttered bread apart. I take small bites, trying to push the voices in my head away. Carbs are not what I want right now.

Looking from the outside in, youd think im struggling to eat because of the baby. But Ax knows. He knows it's because I hate myself. Because I'm terrified of gaining weight. Because if the scale goes up, I don't know if I can handle it.

"I know it's rough, baby. I know you're struggling, but you have to do this for that baby" Axton keeps his voice quiet, and low. Our parents know about the baby, but that's it.

"I'm trying"

"I know, baby. You're doing so good" he kisses my temple.

"Hey" Giana sits beside me, giving me a small smile.

"Hey" I return it, and she sighs.

"Are you nervous about the project? We have to present friday" she huffs, stabbing her food. Her partner was Ford, but she got a new partner after everything.

"Ugh don't even get me started. I hate public speaking. It's so uncomfortable"

"I know, it sucks" Gi sighs again and starts eating her food. "How have you been?"

"Holding up. You?"

"My mating ceremony is thursday. I'm a bit nervous honestly"

"You'll find them, it'll be okay" I give a reassuring smile.

"I know, it's just nerve wracking."

"Yeah it really can be. I know how you're feeling but you just gotta try to stay positive and

hope for the best"

"You're right. Always so wise"

"Yeah, sometimes" I break off another piece of bread, popping it into my mouth. I keep a casual conversation with her. I'm able to eat all the bread, and some chicken I had on my plate. I get nauseous, but it doesn't come back up.

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"I'm making some noodles with red sauce and sausage" Mom says, as she starts getting to work on dinner. I don't have to do training right now, because of the baby. Axton is there, and I'm sitting in the kitchen aisle studying.